look at you.
ya broke.
your bills are due.
you can’t even afford to eat.
you keep praying and no break through.
look around and see all your peers.
they are like little robots.
money, cars, and hoes – thats all a nigga knows.
but, someone comes along.
he seems trusting.
he says he will make all your dreams come true.
you won’t be hungry no more.
your money will always be long.
and, you will have all the dick/ass your heart desires.
he turns on the television and there you are.
you are now a role model to the kids.
you have a nice home and living a different life than you are now.
you look at him and cry.
yes, that’s you.

…just as long as you sign here:

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I’m unhappy.

There I said it.
I have been unhappy for a couple of months now.
I have been crazy UN-focused.
I have been wallowing in my own self pity and I absolutely hate it.
There, I admitted something else.
Not to depress anyone,
because this will actually turn into a very uplifting post….

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you know sally had a saying when life makes you deal with mean and hateful people think of them as sand paper. they may scratch you they may rub you in the wrong way, but eventually you will polished and smooth and the sandpaper… well, it will be worn and ugly. (Beyonce, The Fighting Temptations)

It hurts when you are treated like trash, don’t it?

Have you ever done good for someone (or people),
and it goes UN-acknowledged and UN-appropriated?
That seems to have been my experiences of “When Proving Myself Goes Wrong“…
But, you learn to not over-extend yourself to people who you know won’t give a fuck.
That is what happened when I went back to my old job Friday….
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I thought about something today.
What would Jamari be without “thinking“, huh?

I was laying in my bed this morning,
after making a muthafucka of an omelet I might add,
and I was thinking about losing it all….

Continue reading “God Kills Optimistic People, Don’t He?” →

THROW DIRT ON ME: GROW A WILD FLOWER.

God has a funny way of getting your attention when you are fucking up.
He may put someone negative in your life to show you how to fight.
He may take something you loved away to make you see how comfortable you were getting.
Or, he may drain your account for you to see how money is important for survival.

God got my full attention last week…

Continue reading “Are You Really Prepared For When Your Storm Comes?” →

I feel over it.
I am literally crying as I type this.
Ever since I have been unemployed,
I have been seriously pinching pennies.
I started to look for jobs, but I cannot find any.
I wanted to start my career, which has been proving myself, and I am getting places…
…but it is “free” work.

I look in my account just now and I am over-drafted like 500 dollars.
My savings is completely drained too.
I thought to myself, “Maybe I am imagining things…”
I called my bank IMMEDIATELY and they tell me that my account has been placed on a legal hold.
The IRS decided to take money out of my account I didn’t know I even owed in 2007,
so they decided that in 2012 when I was at my lowest,
to completely DRAIN my account.

So this means I cannot make my rent,
pay the bills I owe next week,
can’t buy food.
and pretty much going to be homeless.

GREAT START FOR JUNE.

I am so depressed right now and I cannot find help.
I just do not get it.
I do good and then, I’m slapped with bullshit.
I feel like I want to throw up.
I feel like I want to die.
I can’t figure which one to do first.

I really a miracle right now.