fomo

i had no business looking at these bey tour videos today

one of my biggest issues in life is feeling fomo.
it stems from my childhood.
being last to be picked in gym class,
not feeling noticed by my family,
and just never feeling like i belong or accepted anywhere.

FOMO or Fear of missing out feels like you are missing something that will make you feel like you belong or are complete.

…but do we really feel complete if we are still feeling empty inside?
i cannot afford bey this year.
she got cut for other priorities i got going on.
i’m in that weird “in between blessings” transition period.
i really wanted to go and when i saw all of these videos on twitter…

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their bad is bigger than my bad so… my bad?

when we are going through it,
everyone else looks shiny and new.
you’re home; they’re out
you’re broke, they’re buying versace
you’re single; they’re riding the d train to countless orgasms
usually when this is happening,
we are in an emotional desert and our minds are playing tricks on us.
every single time that i look at others and feel sudden insecurities,
like i’m missing out or my life really sucks compared to,
they end up telling me how…

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fomo

fomo.
have you ever felt this emotion?
its an acronym for:

FEAR OF MISSING OUT

in many of our lives,
we have felt we were missing out heavy on life,
events,
or even someone you really wanted.
it has the ability to make you feel like a loser amongst your peers.
usually,
it’s when we are at our loneliest.