Everyone has an opinion about King James and his son,
Bronny.

last night,
they made their debut as a father/son duo on the NBA season opener.
all of my straight friends roll their eyes when i’ve asked them about these two.
apparently to them and others on the internet,
bronny is not good at ball and should have went in another career direction.
it got me to thinking about fathers and the weight of their expectations of following in their footsteps.

My own sperm donor would’ve been over the moon if I picked up soccer or cricket,
just like he did.

the idea of me following in his toxic-masculine footsteps would’ve made him so proud.
this is the same jackal who told me that when i was a baby,
and his pack of jackals asked him if he was sure i was his,
he pulled down my diaper…

i pray that i’ve never provided anyone with any trauma out here.
we don’t realize the things we do can really fuck someone up.
they can carry that trauma with them for years,
crippling them from being the best versions of themselves.
yesterday,
on my birthday,
my daddy called me and we had a transparent conversation.
i wanted to hear his side of the story and i’ll be honest with you…

Continue reading “i wonder if i woulda been straight like my daddy?” →

when i started this website,
there were things in my personal life that i wanted to keep to myself.
i knew one day,
i’d put all the cards on the table.
my therapist suggested that i write the following.
so the other night,
i had a dream i was getting married to a wolf that was obsessed with me.
my dream manz was introducing me to his parents and i said to myself within the dream:

“I don’t have anyone to introduce him to.”

it made me sad,
but it made me feel compelled to write this entry…

Continue reading “i can’t even call him daddy (i don’t know him)” →

there was a moment i was obsessed with forever mistah.
i still think he is sexy af,
but i’m the type who hates his fantasies to post all the time.
i love a sense of mystery to my menz.
i’ve heard it all from the fox vine:

“He allegedly escorts”.
“He has an alleged rich suga dad from Africa.”
“He fucks you with the lights on so you can see his feet.”

okay,
the last one was my thoughts.
sorry.
either way,
forever mistah has joined the paid content crew,
but on a completely different platform.
one of the foxholers sent me this…
Continue reading “forever mistah wants you to pay to see him in full blown “daddy” mode” →

deven hubbard posted this picture and the caption was this:

he is letting us know that he didn’t gain any baby weight.
deven is a daddy now.
to some of you,
a heavy “dilf“.
his daughter has arrived and this is what he posted on his ig…

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so i’ve put “oitnb” and “dear white people” on pause for this week.
i had other shows to catch up on.
you know it’s bad when i have to pause a show to watch others.
i heard everyone talking and fonting about the last episode of “pose“.
“revelations”.
episode 8.
season 2.
i finally watched it and…

*light spoilers*

Continue reading “daddy issues? (pose the question)” →