inside jamari fox

pause.
i love when a “straight” male is knee deep in flirting with my gay ass,
he is revealing his true colors as he speaks,
and then he hits me with a “pause“.

pause in the black community is like insurance for your straightness.
all of your sus shit is excused as long as you say pause at the end of a sentence.

It’s like some Christians who think their slates are wiped clean at the altar every Sunday.

i don’t know which year that pause came out but in 2024,
the phrase for straight protection are changing to…

You what this reminds me of?
When your mind makes something bigger than what the reality is.
“He is probably without me and having a good life”…
and then he tells you he has been miserable and flexin’ heavy on the gram.

as a content driven society that lives for drama,
the recent #whereiskate scandal had us all in grips.
kate middleton vanished and we wanted to know where TF she went.
i won’t lie but the conspiracy theories were a fun ride.

I was expecting the one where Kate found out Will was cheating and went rogue.
She was a planning a divorce and she would team up with Meghan for a BRF take down that would be streamed on the OWN network.

alas,
like our minds making things bigger than they actually is,
kate middleton has been in a private battle.
she revealed that she has been fighting cancer today…

when we look at the beautiful ones,
we often think their lives are perfect than ours.
they have perfect credit scores and their hair has the perfect curl pattern.

Even the beautiful ones have problems.

method man,
who looks amazing for his age in his early 50s,
spoke candidly about his depression…

We barely appreciate Mariah and all the other legends.

i keep saying and fonting that people don’t appreciate you until you gone.
until you say “fuck you, don’t talk to me anymore, goodbye“.
folks get the message either through death,
when they see your ass glo’d up in “new me; who dis?”,
or you not fuckin’ with them anymore because of being taken for granted.

“OMG!
______ was so amazing and I miss them so much!”

tell us how you fucked up and lost a good thing without telling us.
so when i see shit like this…

i saw this while trying to wake up this morning and i had thoughts about it
no offense to the person behind this @ but at times,
i think some of us gays can be ignorant and love to flex.
we love to act like we are above it all…
online.
i feel like DL males let you know from the start that they DL.
it ain’t no plot twist just when the shit just starts getting good with them muhfuckas.
they let us know how they get down in those first few conversations but sometimes…

We feel like if we suck his dick better from the right than the left,
he gonna wanna pull up and hold hands in the mall.

i wanna re-frame this in another way…

I already made up in my mind that I was having sex with him tonight.

i like to wait because these negre-nos be full of shit.
this wolf,
however,
has been the perfect gentleman.
he texts me every day,
calls me to see how i’m doing,
and asks me if i’m decent enough to FT.
perfection.
not only that but manz looks good af.
i figured these types are self absorbed and shallow but he is different.
you don’t get a lot of different these days so i fux with different.
heavy.

“So what you doing tonight?” – Him

“You.” – Me

“Oh word?” – Him

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