back in the day,
i was very quiet.
i was “shy” shy.
shit would happen and i would stay silent.
Life forced me to speak up for myself
i am fake shy these days,
but i’ll say whats on my mind if i feel fit.
in a world where folks hides who they are,
and their true thoughts on issues,
i had to wonder…
How honest is too honest?
…and if people know you’re honest,
why aren’t some folks not honest with you?
i had to wonder if choosing to be honest has turned people off from me?
i’m always honest about my feelings on the foxhole,
but is it wrong to be opinionated?
i always try to be honest with others.
i’m never malicious or set out to hurt people,
but i will call out something wrong if i see fit.
it’s weird because when i was quiet,
it was “you so quiet” but now that i speak up for myself,
folks seem intimidated and push me away.
so what is it?
i don’t know what people want from me anymore and…
Should I care?
I agree with the above fellow Foxholer. Focus on you and damn everything else. I just recently lost all eight of my best friends and while at first it definitely did hurt eventually I was able to see that it was their lost, not mines. Some people don’t value you and some friends don’t deserve you. Simple. At the end of the day you know who you are as a person and what you deserve. Keep it pushing, keep being and keep living.
Jamari, if they wouldn’t check on you when you were sick, help you with groceries if struggling, what they think of you doesn’t matter. Spend less time worrying about what you did wrong and how you will be just right to the friends and man that are meant for you. When you meet them, you’ll be able to say you used to struggle with so much, but will have a testimony for them. And can guide them to avoid mistakes you made. Focus on you.
1st. Your “honesty” is what kept me following you. I was surprised at how open and honest you were. It was never in a mean, or demeaning manor. No malice ,or disdain towards others. Actually, you were revealing your true feelings despite how others would judge you. I admire you . I can hide behind my comments ( ha , ha, ha) Smile.
2nd. Your ” honesty” plus high intelligence intimidates some people.It’s Hot to me.. (Don’t change please).
^aww thank you black.
so appreciated and thank you for fonting that to me.
I’m in the same boat! I’ve learned to keep quiet around people who don’t seem to value you.
^some folks don’t deserve all of you.