there are times i regret my rebellious phase with my mother.
Lord,
when i think back,
i was a mess.
i remember telling her i got someone pregnant because she got me vex.
me?
someone pregnant?

i don’t think i ever fully apologized for wildin’ out.
then again…

Every teenager wanted to move out with a bunch of other teenagers,
all who weren’t working,
because they had a gigantic speaker in the living room to throw parties.

…or that might have just been me.
mo’nique legit said if she knew he would be doing tiktoks about her in the future,
she would have….

When she danced with this hummingbird,
I nearly puked.

i forgot this jlo musical,
“this is me… now“,
came out today on amazon prime.

i had night terrors after what what i was gonna see.
so my thoughts…

Remember when I had the BIGGEST crush on ex-baller wolf,
Devin Thomas?

those who have been with in The Foxhole since the beginning know.
i thought that baller wolf was the most “handsomest” i done ever seen.
shadow work made me realize why i was so attracted to him.
next entry?
don’t even get me started on his bawdy.

don’t even get me started on ( x when his pipe leakage dropped! )
sadly tho,
that was when he was out of the nfl because it revealed he had severe mental illnesses.
i feel like something happened that bts that activated it.
i don’t think i realized what really comes with dealing with a baller wolf.
their bawdies can be used for pleasure but there is more to them.
this alleged girlfriend of a 49ers baller wolf revealed the truth…

Mo’Nique is ruining her legacy with me.
Ugh.

is anyone going to call mo’nique out?
someone that she doesn’t have beef with?
i feel like her and that jackal she is married to are out of control.
i wish she didn’t do club shay shay.
i’ll be 100 with you that i didn’t even watch it.
i’m kind of over her.
i don’t get their end game here with leaking her son’s past texts to the public…

two things can be true at the same time.
even three things can be true.

Mo’Nique can be the hero and the villain.

she could speak her own hurt but be responsible for the hurt of others too.
her oldest son being the person she has hurt.
hurt people hurt people?
he laid her shit bare when he exposed her for being an alleged terrible mother…

Chemistry…

you ever met someone and you felt drawn to them?
it was an unexplainable force between you both.
at first,
you genuinely thought that they didn’t like you tbh.
there is a “weird” standoffish energy in the beginning.
you would catch them looking at you tho.
that is the where ya’ll’s story starts.

They can’t keep their eyes off you.
You can’t keep your eyes off them.

you both look at each other like you’re in a trance.
that is the unspoken language.
once the ice melts and you both start feeling comfortable,
you start touching each other in subtle (or not so subtle) ways.

They can’t keep their hands off you.
You can’t keep your hands off them.

you cannot deny chemistry.
this is why most males who are struggling with their sexuality are scared of you.
they know you will have their noses wide open.
so when i saw this video of nfl baller wolf,
travis kelce,
and his ex,
kayla nicole…