“a story of low self esteem.”

that was on the first page.
i think it might have been a warning.
last week,
i decided to start reading to get my mind off “well, you know“.

the new movie “pillion” is based off a book called “box hill” by adam mars-jones.
the book follows colin who meets ray at a biker club called “box hill”.
it is based in the 70s,
but if this was current,
he would be considered an “the fantasy attentionisto” on socials.
so they meet when colin trips over ray at the club…

…and while on his knees,
he sucked ray’s dick at the club because,
well,
why not since he was already down there.

i’m not finished reading but colin annoys me because every other sentence is:

what does a mental health episode look like?
okay,
let’s rephrase:

what does YOUR idea of a true mental health episode look like?

i can’t font for you,
but for me,
it means removing myself from all things until further notice.
before it was wallowing in self pity and sadness.
these days,
its quietly finding what brings me joy to recharge my batteries.

unlike the others,
i can’t pour from an empty cup.

last week,
dante the body had a mental health episode.
he posted a dramatic AF social media post:

“I’M UNALIVING MYSELF AND IF YOU FIND THIS NOTE,
IT’S TOO LATE!”

( x you can see it here )
well,
whoops!…
because he posted this…

i have been thinking of the dante the body situation since yesterday.
i’ve come to the conclusion that…

fonting of not knowing WTF is happening bts…

we have had many discussions about dante the body over the Foxhole years,
but this is a serious one.
i don’t know the context of what has happened since this following post yesterday,
but it seems that he may have allegedly taken his own life (?????).
this is the IG post a Foxholer JUST sent in…

oof,
lil nas x,
if you are trolling for album sales,
ima need you to hit up that safe word like NOW.

“BANANAS”
“OXYCONTIN”
“HELP”

i saw this pop up from “the neighborhood talk” and:

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double oof BUT this actually could be a good thing,
especially for someone like LNX.
in my head…

what in God’s name is going on with lil nas x?

i feel like he does not know who is he anymore.
somewhere between sliding down stripper poles and lap dancing on satan,
he fell off somewhere.
i was interested in this new era of his but then…

so allegedly,
he was hospitalized for an OD but was caught half naked walking the L.A. streets…