when we look at the beautiful ones,
we often think their lives are perfect than ours.
they have perfect credit scores and their hair has the perfect curl pattern.

Even the beautiful ones have problems.

method man,
who looks amazing for his age in his early 50s,
spoke candidly about his depression…

when i think of a life coach,
i think of someone who is going to help me find a sense of direction.
they understand my needs,
or lack their of,
and try to help me find the right path for my life.
they will be tough but still gentle enough for me to understand.
i’d require someone who has been properly trained and has credentials.
i want to see reviews from past clients as well.
i require a lot when it comes to coaching me for success.

It seems that attentionisto,
Christopher Matthews aka @kingedcam,
is trying to do something different.

a Foxholer sent me a drop that he wants to coach you to take it.
by take it,
i mean life by the horns because he is getting into the life coaching business…

control.
oftentimes,
we have a need and a desire to be in control of other people.
that can create a lot of resentment and a breeding ground for toxic situations.
when we are out of control,
that is when the real “us” comes flying out.

Insecure
Panic
Jealousy
Envy
Letting all kinds of disrespect slide
Being nasty and disrespectful to others

on the low,
my mother had showed me how she was self control in relationships.
she had a big learning lesson with her first husband but she learned quick.
when she entered relationships after that,
and it was revealed that many of them were actually jackals in disguises…

so i’ve learned to heal from many years of abuse,
more-so mental and emotional,
i also learned something as well.
one of the many things ive noticed with abuse is…

Continue reading “you need the abuse to prove they love you” →

there are Foxholers who have stood by my side since the beginning.
many of them have picked up pom poms and cheered when i couldn’t.
they have been with me during the good and the bad.
i started a patreon and they signed up just to show their support.
that means a lot.

I continue to create content for them.
Even if it’s only 20 people,
you give those 20 people a hell of a show.

they have stood by my side since i started this platform.
when people talk about albums that got them through difficult times:

Foxholers have told me that I got them through hard times.

like,
that’s a blessing i have tremendous gratitude for.
this is acceptance of my own power comes in…

Continue reading “you aren’t there because you haven’t accepted here.” →

So let’s go back.
I’m fonting all the way back.
like,
bottles and bibs “back”.

“hey little you.”
when many of us were younger,
we were innocent and had clean slates.
the world was big and bright.
we thought turning 13 meant we were old.
those who were lucky with parents who protected them,
their childhoods were practically flawless.
the rest of us weren’t so lucky.
someone(s) showed us hurt instead of love.
sometimes it was one incident or a few that made us go mute.
that is the day we decided to lock ourselves in a cage…

Continue reading “at least the cage you locked your inner child in is pretty” →