This picture is brutal but it is life.
It is the circle of life.

i had a dream about this picture last night and it came with a message.
as you can see,
that picture is a leopard who killed a monkey,
while its child clung to its lifeless body.
it was shot by igor altuna.
what’s interesting is that…

I’m one of those people who keeps all his iPhone boxes.

i don’t throw them out because in my head:

“What if I need it in the future?”

what,
in some weird emergency,
i need to return my iPhone?
not realizing that when some shit happens,
apple literally sends you a cardboard box to send your phone back in.
so if that isn’t it,
then what is it?

Maybe it’s keeping the box that when I see it,
I remember the memories that came with that particular iPhone?

like my iPhone boxes,
i was holding onto someone that i no longer speak to on “find my friends“.
we haven’t talked in 2 years but we knew each other for 12.
it took about a 2 months in 2022 for our friendship to end.
all i had left was us still connected through that app.
when i would go on there to look for my devices,
they would pop up,
living in an entirely different state with whole new life now.

over the weekend,
i had a friend posed a few questions to me…

What we’re not gon’ do today is feel depressed.
What we’re not gon’ do today is feel worthless.
What we’re not gon’ do today is feel left out.

because let’s be real,
today is just the day for people to flex off their relationships.
the posts are rolling in:

“Haha,
I ain’t lonely today,
bitch!”

but realistically…

i had a conversation with a friend that stuck with me.
she told me how she kept to herself,
never bothered anyone,
but that alone made vixens hate her.
she never understood why as she always stayed to herself.
she is also gay too.
funny,
that was my life too...

Are we upset about what is happening?
Or is it about what we fear might happen next?

as you know,
today marks a new forest order.
it was one of those days where impeding doom hit like a freight train.
hell,
i was moody the entire weekend.
when i finally sat with myself,
the real question hit me…

You ever felt depressed but because of society or whatever,
you forced yourself to be together when you didn’t feel like it?

“It’s okay to not be okay.”

the handsome one said that last night.
he was saying how he hasn’t been feeling his best.
between the LA fires,
everything happening in the news,
and Lord knows the idea of what the next four years looks like.
his honesty was refreshing.
this good looking wolf admitting he was not ok at his moment.
i’m going to go with a controversial hot take…