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i had no business looking at these bey tour videos today

one of my biggest issues in life is feeling fomo.
it stems from my childhood.
being last to be picked in gym class,
not feeling noticed by my family,
and just never feeling like i belong or accepted anywhere.

FOMO or Fear of missing out feels like you are missing something that will make you feel like you belong or are complete.

…but do we really feel complete if we are still feeling empty inside?
i cannot afford bey this year.
she got cut for other priorities i got going on.
i’m in that weird “in between blessings” transition period.
i really wanted to go and when i saw all of these videos on twitter…

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was 1999 when america was the last “great” time?

randomly,
i decided to put on christina aguilera’s debut album last night.
i haven’t heard it in a while but i still knew every song word for word.

“Come on over,
come on over baby…” – track 5

“When you put your hands on me,
I feel sexy and my body loses control…” – track 9

“Caught up in emotions,
I’m out of control,
Isn’t it obvious…” – track 12

when her album came out,
i was a kid and my mother was still alive.
we were living in a bomb crib and rent was cheap for 3 bedrooms.
fast food tasted better,
the future seemed brighter,
and the only “social media” was sneaking into her aol account.
’99-2000 was probably the best time in my life but i had to wonder…

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the harsh reality of america, mass shootings, and yourself

the united states are in utter shambles.
everything is a mess.
people can’t even go to the mall,
the supermarket,
or even school without the possibility of getting shot TF up.
the latest mass shooting was in allen, texas at a mall and again,
everyone is outraged and up in arms.

“We have to get rid of guns!”
“Children are dying!”
“We need to show them the carnage!”

foxhole,
i’m here to font you about the jackals in power…

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did i miss the memo when the rules of being straight changed?

as a gay male,
when i look at dante,
the first thing i see are those big powerful thighs.
the way his shorts are grippin’>
~~i love looking at big thighs in tight hoochie daddy shorts.~~
next,
i see his thick ass bawdy and lastly,
it’s his handsome face.
even though i don’t see much of a print,
i’ve still decided in my head and fantasies:

I’d let him smash.

as a gay male,
those are my rules of attraction.
i thought i knew what straight wolves liked,
but their rules have changed.
this tweet…

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what’s the weirdest thing you’ve been told not to do because it’s “gay” ?

that hand has been used to describe me more often than not.
that picture always unlocks a trigger.
i saw a thread on reddit titled:

What’s the weirdest thing you’ve been told not to do because it’s “Gay” ?

i know this topic all to well.
many of us were tortured by this growing up.
minding our business,
drinking our koolaid snaps,
and someone telling us something we are doing is “gay”.
i can name 2 that stick out in my head…