i been feeling very “blah” today.
hell i’ve felt blah for the last week and a half.
from this extremely cold weather,
( x that odd interview ) i had on tuesday,
in between blessings due to this unemployment cut off,
and just feeling tired and “ugly”,
i’m just in a “blah” state of mind right now.
no one to sex me sane,
my gym membership is overdue,
and i can’t buy anything cute or shiny.
you know its bad when i completely ignored my shows too?
so today i decided to do the following today…
the only other time i like to get down on my knees.
i do this thing where i call it “resetting my mental hard drive”.
i turn off all of my devices at the same time,
stand up and “shake the monkey off my back”,
do some breathing exercises,
and turn everything back on at the same time.
ready to start fresh and relaxed.
i sent “thank you” emails to all the people i interviewed with.
just to show my appreciation for meeting with me,
as well as refresh their own memories of who i was.
i love hot chocolate.
i usually drink it on my couch,
blanket over me,
and in the middle of quiet.
usually in deep thought as the chocolate coats my throat.
my hot chocolate recipe
ima to catch up on all my shows,
maybe even a movie today,
and make my favorite:
apple pie a la mode
when i’m really moody,
i go IN on content.
either that or clean.
since my apartment is spotless,
i will update as much as i can later.
i like to get a masssge when i’m stressed.
since that has been cut from the budget,
i take warm baths instead.
since it is freezing out,
it is much needed.
i fill my bathtub with a good amount of water,
while adding epson salt,
and scented oil.
that is where i want to do the next…
i’m pretty tired of this job interview shit.
i am way too talented to be in this position.
i should be happy,
its like i’m stressing to find a job,
but i often wonder if i’m supposed to be bigger than that?
are jobs avoiding me because i’m missing my true calling?
there is no day that i don’t think about ijf constantly.
i go to sleep and wake up with this site and content on my mind.
i really want to live off my site.
i guess i need help,
but i’m starting the process for power.
lowkey: if anyone has any “feel good” tips that don’t involve:
someone’s body part in me
spending crazy money
let me know!