i’m guilty of this.
you might be as well.
for skilled players in the forest,
you don’t make these kinds of mistakes.
for others,
you can jump too quick and fall just as hard.
what am i talking about…

“the boyfriend experience”

that’s giving a wolf,
fox,
or hybrid the treatment of what it would be like to be with you.
only problem is they ain’t.
ya’ll just talking.
hell maybe even friends.
you might like him more than he likes you.
you may not even be sure.
there has been no confirm that you both are together,
will be together,
or headed down that road.
you just go with your feelings.
feelings can fuck you up out here.
people who have:

1) self esteem issues
2) lonely
3) all of the above (the deadliest combo)

…start to do things for shiny new toys.
in your mind,
he is everything you want.
so what you do?
start trying to show him what a good potential you could be.
it can start with you buying him shit.
it starts small,
but then it becomes a habit.
next you start emotionally giving yourself away.
he isn’t as hooked as you are.
you start over-extending yourself.
you start to depend on him for what you THINK he provides.
you feel if you don’t see or hear from him,
even if its just for a day,
that he will forget all about you.
the silence is deafening if he isn’t around.
you start feeling like you can’t live without him.

if he doesn’t respond back on time,
you are left wondering where he is.

you have taken him from:

“friend zone”

and put him as:

“potential boyfriend”

its even worse if he is fuckin’ you.
you fucked up and let him get some.
now you really gone.

stop giving your “boyfriend experience” to seasonal animals.
i’m learning that now.

you don’t have to buy him anything to make him stick around
if he isn’t open emotionally, you don’t need to do it so it can start
if it’s just sex, make sure you can really handle it

until the animal says:

“i want to be with you”

…and his actions are mutual,
then don’t give him a preview of that side.
let him see you a friend.
i’m done letting people see the best of what i can offer.
wolves.
family.
friends.
even vixens i meet.
its okay to be a little selfish until your needs are met.
soooooooooo…
no giving the keys to your spot,
letting him drive your car,
 hitting him up as soon as you get up,
or letting him nut in you.
“the boyfriend experience” is only for those who want it.
he doesn’t deserve it…
yet.
maybe not at all.

lowkey: i’m not saying you can’t care about a muthafucka,
but don’t go over the line.
you know the line.
its when you realize you are doing way too much.