Do black folks deserve stars?

do we deserve our own to showcase their talent,
representation,
or a seat at the table?
it seems like when black people step into the spotlight,
we’re celebrated until we’re not.
it even happens to black sex workers on onlyfans.
yes,
even the straight ones.

Why does it seem we tolerate our people “until”?

now read me correctly,
this isn’t about the ones we shouldn’t have given fame to in the first place…

read ^that as many times as you can.
i know i will.
as a creative,
i totally get hating to work a real job while working on your real dreams.
dealing with the day-to-day grind while dodging idiot bosses can be a downer.

You’ll be surprised how many actors and actresses have to do it while in-between blessings.

from the last entry,
eric d hill is an acting wolf but was living a regula degula life.
i’ve met so many in the industry who work regula gigs to make ends meet in-between.
when the acting or singing work isn’t pulling big money like the bigger names,
you will be working a regula gig until shit pops.
no cap,
but i knew one of the actresses that act(ed?) on that show,
manifest.
how?…

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 another person quit today.
another amazing and talented person.
i felt sad because i’ve only known them a few weeks,
but they were so fuckin’ dope.
so i’ve only been there a few months,
but it’s a legit revolving door…

Continue reading “another one bites the dust (job)” →

i did not see that coming tonight.
i’ve been into all the current harvey weinstein alleged allegations.
it’s been the alleged talk in hollywood for years now.
he isn’t the only one with alleged smoke coming out their forest.
having talent is not easy.
being good looking can be a curse.
they gas you up into thinking:

“YOU’RE THE NEXT BIG THING!’

…but at what price?
as a cub,
you sang/danced/acted/modeled in front of a mirror.
you pretended your bedroom was the main stage.
think: grammys or even the bet awards.
you spent countless hours working on your craft.
you took lessons or even majored in college to perfect it.
some,
it’s a good given natural talent.
i know.
i’ve been there.
the problem is when you have no connections in the industry.
hollywood.
bright lights; big city.
you are literally starting from the bottom up.
that means you gotta hustle harder than some of the others.
the “big break” is a phone call away.
nepotism is their business card.
yours is:

hitting the pavement
getting rejected
having your self esteem lowered

…only to do it over and over again.
you get some little gigs here and there,
but the ultimate goal is your name in lights.
it’s tough and can almost be defeating.
that is until you meet someone…

Continue reading “He Won’t Be The Last Dick You (Allegedly) Suck To Make It Big” →

why does going after your dreams feel so…
overwhelming?
it makes you feel kinda insecure?
almost like you want to give up?
like why does that happen?
why is it when we are confronted with what we want,
or something we thought we knew we wanted,
(until we got all the logistics)
that we buckle?
it can feel like throwing it in the air,
running far away,
and never coming back.
our careers look easy in our minds,
but we have no idea the hard work that goes into it.
acting is hard work.
modelling is hard work.
rapping is hard work.
writing is hard work.
fashion is hard work.
blogging is hard work.
college is hard work.
careers are hard work.
everything requires some kind of sacrifice.
so i had to ask…

You thought it was gonna be easy, huh?…
Continue reading “Ask Me My Talent” →

the same thing he promoted so heavy,
is the same thing that nearly took him out this world.
sad.
this lil wayne situation has been an eye opener.
although it won’t stop people from getting high,
or from people signing with young money,
it goes to show you what comes with being “famous”.
money,
power,
respect?
not really.
it is all smoke and drank to numb your demons….

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