I’m giving the same look as well.

back in the 80s and 90s,
coke was the party drug of choice.
in this decade,
it’s still the go-to for the elite but has been slowly making its way into the hood.
fonting of the hood,
once crack was introduced,
it was over.
growing up,
meth was the ultimate nightmare drug.
those meth ads scared my gay ass straight,
showing how it could slowly turn you into a gargoyle.

…but recently,
it seems like meth is becoming more and more accepted.

“AnYoNe GoT anY TiNA (meth’s alt acct name) to PnP?”

i came across a tweet that hit me in the gut,
and many Foxholers echoed the sentiment with their own stories and confirmations….

when it rains; it pours.
when you’re a bumbling idiotic jackal,
it’s a damn hurricane.
remember we fonted about ex-porn star jackal,
billy santoro,
and his gross ranting about black folks because of the george floyd riots?
( x see that entry here )
i mean they dragged his ass to a suicide attempt.
he blames his past actions on his meth addiction:

Day 2 – Recovery! https://t.co/Aa94VgToya pic.twitter.com/nk3VFh4QYy

— BillyandGageRemiXXXed (@BillyandGage) October 4, 2020

but now it seems life is dragging him to eviction.
it beez those sex parties via “smh”…

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FOXMAIL

Hey Jamari,

So I hope you’ve been doing good personally and professionally! I haven’t really gotten a chance to read or even comment on the blog. I’m deep in Georgia taking care of my dad who has dementia. I’ve been viewing when I get a chance or time to myself.

I don’t know if you remember us talking but I remember mentioning a guy I dealt with years ago that was addicted to meth. I haven’t spoken with him in years. From time to time, I would call his last known number and leave voicemails and texts in the hopes that we would speak. I’ve been in Georgia since April and even then, I called his phone hoping that I would get him. It was one day last week that I was sitting down and I got a message on A4A by someone who called me by name. It was him. I damn near cried Jamari. He updated his phone number and gave it to me. We talked. I told him about my moving to Florida and wanting to go to Flatbush to speak to his mother (my best friend didn’t think it was a good idea) to ask for him. He told me he’s been going to church with his mother in Brooklyn and he’s been looking for me too. I asked him was he taking care of himself and he said that there’s a lot of things he wants to speak to me about when I do come back to New York. I’m assuming it’s about the drug use. I will say that he sounded less erratic now than he did in the past.

Jamari, let me be perfectly honest. I’ve dealt with men who were more handsome, better off financially, bigger, tighter, and drug free. I don’t know why I feel what I feel for this man, but every man I have ever dealt with cannot compare to him. I love him and have always loved him. He is 2 years younger than me. We would stay in my apartment all weekend watching movies and fucking. We would talk about so many things. But his drug use is what made me stay away from him. The more comfortable he got with me, the more he got open in his use of meth around me. The last time I saw him was either in 2014 or 2015 and I went to his condo in the Bronx. It was a Chinatown traphouse. We were about to mess around but, he needed to take a hit before he could perform. I left abruptly and avoided his calls and texts.

I come back to New York on June 17 and we are supposed to catch up when I get back. I know myself. I know that when I see him, I’m going to hold him and start crying. I have been looking and searching for this man literally for years and I made a promise to myself that I were to ever find him, I can’t let him go. I don’t know why I love him, but he is spiritually familiar to me. Happiness is all I feel when he comes around. I haven’t let go of the hope that I would see him or be with him again, and I feel that life has given me a second chance at happiness with the one that loves me.

Am I making the right decision in inviting this man back into my life or am I setting myself up for an even bigger letdown?

Kind regards,

MY ANSWER…

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so the last hit nelly had was in 2012.
oh wait…
we aren’t talking about music this time.
i think the last was time was “grillz”?
or was it “hot n hurr”?
i don’t even remember.
i think i paid attention to him musically when he debuted his jail bawdy.
anyway we are talking about him getting busted with drugs and weapons last night.
meth being the drug of choice.
us weekly has more on this fiasco…
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i’ve got 1 of 2 updates.
one that involves water balloon butt cheeks,
escorting,
and recreational drugs.
score!

they also involve how adam4adam has become “the place to not be“.
i was over at luckey’s side of town when i saw a familiar face.
luckey got an anonymous letter,
from the same person,
which happened to feature this wolf…

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