i was taught to fear many things.
hell,
everything.
i grew up in a strict christian household and everything was the enemy.
if you asked anyone in my family when i was a kid,
i was rebellious and a bit of a wild card.
as the years went on,
and i got broken down piece by piece,
i started to get consumed by all kinds of fears.

I’ve always been in fear of God.

i didn’t want to appear disobedient in fear of going to hell or karma.
this last year has literally been from the pits of hell.
every time i think i take 2 steps forward,
i’m pushed down the stairs back into the basement.
i’ve been trying not to question God but it has been hard.
when i woke up this morning,
the other window in my living room fell out.
needless to say,
i blacked the entire fuck out at 6 am and screamed on God…

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one of my biggest fear in the past was being outed.
either for my sexuality,
this website,
or being interested in males who seemed interested in me.
i became a recluse out of fear of people and their thoughts of me.
i was carrying around such a heavy load of shame within myself.
i was thinking about my fear of being turned on for liking “such and such”…

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i fonted on twitter the other day:

“I’ve been wasting my handsome-ness on dusties.”

i meant that in the most non-conceited way possible.
i was actually taking some self inventory of myself,
tbh.
it’s true was true tho.

Hi.
I’m Jamari Fox and I’m a fear based,
self sabotaging,
and insecure fox.
Nice to meet you.
Where is the bathroom?

no seriously,
i have to pee.
i realized it’s all my fault and i’m glad i’m able to recognize that…

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i’m proud of america (for once).
i haven’t said/fonted that in a while.
lil nas x came out of the closet and there was no push back.
he is still selling and i enjoy him on twitter.
he spoke to “time magazine” about how scared he was to come out.
a foxholer sent me what he he had to say via “msn“…
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she’s pretty,
but i think she might be a little stupid.
what?
you come here for my honesty so…
^that is trans-vixen and l’oreal spokeswoman,
munroe bergdorf.
she claims that vixens assigned “female” at birth put the fear in her.
according to “the guardian“…
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i heard gay males over here use to love going to brazil for their meat.
not the food,
but the fine brazilian males that live in those parts.
all that has changed and many gays are in fear of their lives.
an openly gay congressman,
jean wyllys,
has left the country because of all the rampant homophobia.
a foxholer sent me this from “npr”…
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