I just had to tell someone recently:

“You always pick things against your best interest.
You choose the wrong men and the wrong life choices.
You’ve been not only a consistent disappointment in my life,
but with those around you.
We have all grown accustomed to YOU doing the wrong shit.
Why would I believe you’d make the best decision that would help me?”

Needles to font,
we aren’t speaking atm.
It felt good to say it out loud.

i’m at the point of my life where i don’t expect much anymore.
my expectations are low when it comes to certain people/things.
if someone/something has a habit of showing up,
i keep my expectations at a healthy place.
other people/things:

it helps you from being disappointed instead of getting you hopes up.
if the opposite happens,
you can act like a kid who got what they wanted for christmas.
i’m glad i didn’t expect much from the cmas in regards to cowboy carter cause…

i saw this picture fly down my twitter in between all the filth and narcissism,
and the first thing i thought to myself:

“This is the type of shit Bey is singing about in Cowboy Carter.”

it got me wanting to a the sequel to brokeback mountain.
“brokeback mountain: II legs II heaven“.
so i didn’t know who he was until the Foxholers told me.
um…

i saw “act ii: cowboy carter” leaked yesterday and i told myself:

“DON’T JAMARI!
CHILL!”

i was laying in bed,
while recovering from bad allergies when i saw it all over twitter.
i am proud of myself for waiting until the actual release to listen.
so my thoughts…

my only regret in life is it took me a really long time to realize this.
because of my trauma,
i always tried to be seen in a good light.
it was always met with criticism that made me question myself.
you could do everything perfectly,
dotting all “i”‘s and crossing all “t”‘s…

They’ll still talk about you like you are filth.

i’m really excited about beyonce dippin’ her feet into country.
i’m a country-lite fan myself but i love when bey puts her spin on things.
i love the two singles she released in anticipation of “cowboy carter“.
she released the album cover yesterday with this caption:

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…which i really liked tremendously.
azealia banks doesn’t like any of it and had this to font…