she finally got a gut full of human!…
“what if the world did come to an end?”
he asked me in a text.
i was so fuckin’ tired.
new york decided to have a tsunami last night.
i thought my window would have blown in.
i didn’t have an answer for him.
i chose to ignore it.
i’m grateful god spared my life for another day,
but of course,
his question pondered in my head…
Am I satisfied with my life thus far?
2012 seems like a tough year for everyone.
I thought it was just me going through the fire.
Shit, at this point I could as well take my clothes off and two step within the flames.
But, it seems that everyone I know is dealing with some issue or another.
Whether it is losing jobs, ending of careers, money issues, love drama, or just finding themselves…
2012 is one for the record books.
I started to wonder if those who are really strong to us that we look up too,
will they admit that they break during the hard times?
I mean, you know I don’t give a damn about telling anyone I’m going through it.
I cry about it, pray about it, and then write about it.
But, who do the strong cry too when they are weakened?
Or, do they even cry at all?
Shit, am I just an emotional bitch?
I had to ask…
Do big boys really cry?
How solid is your reputation?
I mean, do you really know?
Have you done something trife that has travelled with you?
Are you known amongst people and your peers?
How does feel to have a Scarlet Letter on your chest?
This is for my Foxes and Hybrids really.
I know there comes a point in our lives when we say “fuck it” and go HO buck wild.
I know that I have had my slight hoish moments.
I never had a 4 some or no shit like that.
But, I was at a place where I was enjoying many Wolves at one time.
I even did some bird shit by trying to get with Wolves my friends have fucked with.
I am not immune to hosish tendencies then, now, or for my future.
It is life.
Plus,I seem to be meeting the finest Wolves in this industry.
I may have to pop, lock, and drop on a nice penis… or two.
I have to ask…