yeah,
i fonted it.
a bitch.
you made my life really uncomfortable,
but as much id like to throw hands before you exit,
i think it was for the best.
when i first entered you…

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every time the holiday season comes around,
i feel immense loneliness within my soul.
i start feeling sad about “me vs what everyone else is doing”.

I wonder if there were no social media and this VIP access in their lives,
would we really care what people were doing during the holidays?

people meaning those who hurt us or our exes who easily moved on.
family members who don’t want to invite you because you’re gay.
your crackhead cousin and drunk uncle get invites but yours got lost in email somehow.
i’ve been listening to adele’s recent album and i’m sure that isn’t helping either.
that damn adele…
there is a current emotional trifecta that is happening to some of us…

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“I hate to drop this bomb on you,
but there is something I have to tell you…”

whenever I’ve heard those words in my life,
it was always associated with something awful.
it was said to me when I found out my mother had leukemia.
another time,
I was being told that a friend I trusted was slandering me behind my back.
the last was I was fired from that last job I was at.
that sentence has never been good for me.
that sentence came from my therapist today…

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i looooooooooovveeeee ^this picture of her.
lil’ kim is one of my favorite female rappers.
I’ve fonted that many times before.
you know she is a july cancer too.
she comes off like she has a kind and loving spirit.
like many cancers,
that often leads to the wrong company trying to destroy your life.
I’ll admit I haven’t been keeping up with her as of late.
last I saw her,
it felt like it was no secret that she has body dysmorphic disorder:

yeah.
I dunno who has been doing her makeup as of late,
but this is how she is looking for this year’s fashion week…

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there are some artists who will have always people talking.
no matter what they do,
it will be a subject of conversation.
i’d like to think lnx aka lil nas x is one of those people.
he left “old town county road” and made his new residence at “the gates of damnation“.
as someone who loves to make people lose their shit,
it warms my heart to see the straights and church folks go into cardiac arrest.
last night,
he continued his death streak with his performance at the bet awards.
he performed his song,
“call me by your name“:

…and at the end,
sealed it with a kiss.

 it was very entertaining to watch,
but i had to wonder…

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around this time last year,
i had all these big hopes and dreams for 2020.
i was expecting the male and the money.
in my head,
there were a lot more outings and good times with the community i was in.
around this time last year,
i was supposed to go to a big party that one of my home wolves was throwing in the city.

2020 was supposed to be “my year”

it was supposed to be all of our years tbh.
who woulda thunk…

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