inside jamari fox

we don’t realize other people are going through their own shit too.
i am so in my head about this housing shit,
i was brought back down to earth really quick.
now this doesn’t mean my issue isn’t stressful,
but when i talk/font to others,
i’ve been shown they are stressed TF out too.
one of my home vixens got to chatting last week.
i told her shit has been rough without going into too much detail.
so she responded that she….

“a story of low self esteem.”

that was on the first page.
i think it might have been a warning.
last week,
i decided to start reading to get my mind off “well, you know“.

the new movie “pillion” is based off a book called “box hill” by adam mars-jones.
the book follows colin who meets ray at a biker club called “box hill”.
it is based in the 70s,
but if this was current,
he would be considered an “the fantasy attentionisto” on socials.
so they meet when colin trips over ray at the club…

…and while on his knees,
he sucked ray’s dick at the club because,
well,
why not since he was already down there.

i’m not finished reading but colin annoys me because every other sentence is:

lately,
i’ve been listening to the “waiting to exhale” soundtrack.
i know.
that isn’t a good sign.
it has me thinking about bernadine’s storyline in the movie.

she was the faithful wife,
thinking she was going to have a night out with her husband,
when he tells her that he is leaving her for a white vixen.

right now,
i am bernadine but i’m past the shock phase.
that was saturday when i heard the test of my emergency broadcast system.
today…

…allegedly fonting,
of course.

so i randomly learned alexander skarsgård is best friends with jack mcbrayer,
who was on “kenneth” on “30 rock“.
i discovered this while not minding my business:

…and i thought it was really sweet tbh.
i love when i discover two people you’d never think are friends.

i made me realize the “friendships” with my polar opposites in my own life,
ones who we kept our friendships private,
they were either scared DLs or using me for my warmth.
Foxhole,
please be careful of these males only using you under the disguise of “friendship”.

while i was looking into more stuff about “pillion”,
which alexander stars in,
i learned he casually admitted recently that he allegedly dealt with other males before…

when i saw the poster for the new movie from a24,
“pillion“,
i knew exactly what that collar represents.
someone i was talking to recently introduced me to the sub/dom culture.
it was something that i heard about but never knew the inner workings of.

i found it sexy AF when he told me that he put a collar on his last partner.
the collar represents that as a dom,
you are his.
the collar isn’t always metal btw.

he told me how when he was in the bedroom with his sub(s)…

diddy got 50 months,
which equals about 4 years,
but as many of us sighed relief this shit is over:

“cassie should be in jail.”
“this is all cassie fault.”
“cassie brought the black man down.”

tbh…