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My Moodiness Gets The Best of Me

   Published Date: February 4, 2016  6 Comments on My Moodiness Gets The Best of Me

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9:54am.

moody.
i woke up on the wrong side of the den.
it all started last night.
everything was just a mess…

the streets of new yawk are a mess.
my crib with that messy cousin of mine is a mess.
this relationship with work wolf is a mess.
jamari fox is a mess.
i can’t get over how much of a mess things are.
i got in the crib last night and went straight to bed.

today i don’t feel like being anywhere.
i’m just floating.
i don’t want to be bothered.

texting
talking

none of that.
my whole life is on “do not disturb” today.
the sound of anyone’s voice is grating my nerves.
i just want this day to get to 6pm so i can go home.

yeah.
don’t bother me.
the end.

10:01am

giphy

update: i wrote that in the meanest funk today.
i did turn the day around reading about positive affirmations.
i also found a good therapist…
until he told me doesn’t see anyone after 2pm.
he was in a penthouse office in the city too.
smh.
i want a black and gay one,
but i’ll settle for a black straight wolf who isn’t a judgmental asshole.

6 thoughts on “My Moodiness Gets The Best of Me”

  1. I’m happy that you were able to find a therapist even though a black, gay one would be preferable. Going to therapy really helped me through a rough time. Sometimes, talking to a disinterested professional is definitely more helpful than just venting to friends. I recommend therapy for most people, especially black men, gay or straight.

  2. At first I was skeptical about you going to a therapist, but it may not be a bad such a bad thing. Finding a gay one who understands you may be tough tho.

  3. Damn sounds like you woke up in the wrong side of the bed this morning lol don’t worry been there a few times this week.

    Whatever therapist you find I hope they’re able to help and not be the kind to just want your money and no do much to help you through your problems.

  4. You’re a hot ass mess, but that can be fix with a nice warm bubble bath, music, lavender oil to relax you and a nice cup of tea with mint to cool you…. So when Mi gonna move out?

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