aunt wendy might be done.
after her jackal of a husband left and her mother passed,
along with the constant health issues,
things just haven’t been looking good.
she is the epitome of down bad.
it seems that allegedly aunt wendy is confined to a wheelchair…

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The Universe is always listening,
but we have to ask so the things we want will be given.
it has been hell looking for a new therapist.
i’ve sent countless emails and made some cold calls.

Nothing
Nada
Zilch
“Gone Til Next November”

so i told myself that i was gonna let it go.
i didn’t want to put any more pressure on my plate.
so i put it on the back burner and felt myself move on.
as i was checking emails today…

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i use to think really lowly of myself.
it bugs me out how i viewed myself when it came to men.
i was having a phone conversation with the pretty vixen yesterday.
she mentioned something i said to work wolf about her.
in her words…

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one thing i realized while listening to the new summer walker album,
“still over it“:

We all like to think we are special snowflakes.

we all like to think that they won’t turn on us.
“he treats me differently than he does him/her.”
“he never did what he did with his exes than he did with me.”
in reality tho…

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i’ve been thinking a lot about my life as of late.
where i went wrong with the jackals that i thought were in my corner.
it’s a real eye-opener when you wake up from the slumber of stupidity.
the more i apologized for reacting to their bad behavior,
the more it was used against me.

you think to yourself:

“Damn…
If I knew then,
what I knew now,
I would have had insert person here wrapped around my entire finger.”

many of those kind of people were doormats to bigger demons than them.
they met their match with someone else who didn’t tolerate their shit.
this following tweet really spoke to me today…

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when i’m done; i’m done.
when jamari fox is turned off,
it’s really hard to turn him back on.
there are a few attentionistos who disrespected me and the foxhole in the past.
i’ve been sent their biceps,
thighs,
cheeks,
peens,
sex tapes,
and nothing will budge for me to find interest.

Add on how I’ve been killing it in therapy…

“i feel sorry for that man”.
this mercury retrograde has been an interesting one because i’ve been feeling the shifts.
there was a ps4 gaming group that i was in that i realized i outgrew.
i knew i was done when i fully removed myself from the group chat.
there was one member in the group that i was pretty close with,
but i realized early on they would side with them.
call it my foxy senses coming into play.
i was sent a whatsapp message after a month of being ignored.
there is no need to be nasty in your breakups…

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