at around 12 am as i was on my way to bed,
off 2 bennys cause my allergies were disrespecting me,
i heard a loud ass thump/bang combo in my living room.
i thought someone broke in so i grabbed the closest weapon to me.
my broom.
when i slowly went into my living room,
i saw…

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“It’s not my fault”.

that is what i said after a conversation with my cousin today.
healing can come in many ways unexpectedly.
sometimes,
we need to go back and really research our family tree.
we will find out what happened to us and how it started.
after hearing about how trauma started in my family,
i felt like i found a key and opened the doors to narnia in my attic.
many of my family members have one thing in common…

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this was sitting on my spirit and i was urged to font this.
from the desk of the foxhole.

We have to stop getting mad because people don’t agree with us.

People will not like us because we are black.
People will not like us because we are gay.
People will not like us because we are trans.
People will not like us because we are non-binary.
People will not like us because we are people.

when it comes to sexuality or gender…

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they always say what happened in the past should stay there.
i believe something different.
now,
unless you came from abuse and trauma,
you want to deadlock that door and move away completely.

What about situations where you fell out with someone and they come back?

i have a lot of people who realize how great i was once we fall out.

many people,
if they can find me,
end up hitting me up to rekindle what we had.
i just had someone who came back like 3 weeks ago.
i still haven’t called them to catch up.
i’m pretty knowledgeable on this subject so these are my thoughts…

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this is gonna be a silly entry but maybe a life-changing one,
depending on who picks up what i’m putting down.
so as you know,
or didn’t,
but i’ve been playing breath of the wild on the switch.
it has been keeping my mentalz pretty chill.
i haven’t played it for a few days but i finally got to the boss before the boss.

Van Naboris,
the dreaded camel in the desert level.

everyone,
from foxholers to reviews online,
talked about how difficult the level and boss were.
going into it,
i dreaded it and started doubting myself.
i had the skills and learned how to whoop ass up until that point.
apparently,
this is where all i learned was gonna be tested.
foxhole…

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i’m legit obsessed with this game atm.
breath of the wild on the nintendo switch best represents life.
i bought this game in 2021 during the lockdown.
during that time,
i wasn’t in the right headspace for it.
i picked it up twice and each time,
i felt overwhelmed.
like my own life around that time,
i felt intimated by this big forest in front of me.
in zelda,
once you move past a particular section,
the world opens up for you to explore.
each time…

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