Have you ever wondered why we spend so much time trying to be “better” for people who wouldn’t recognize better if it hit them over the head?

for most of my life,
i was a rule-follower.
at work,
with family,
in friendships,
and let’s not even font about looking for a partner.
i bent over backward trying to be the version of “better” everyone claimed they wanted.
they’d say they needed someone dependable,
thoughtful,
or different from all the “bad” they’d experienced before.
like a fool with a savior complex,
i tried to be the answer to their complaints.
here’s what they don’t tell you about following the rules…

Hey there,
Foxhole,
do hear that knock?
Listen.
Just listen…

that’s the sound of many males sliding deep into your DMs.
why?
there’s a war brewing and not just in the forests but in the sheets.
post-election,
elon’s swamp is being drained and many vixens are putting a pause on penises.
enter: the 4B movement…

Breaking news: The forests seem to be waking up to a whole new era.

it’s as if everyone’s mindsets started shifting at the same time last week.
the rules?…

Can you believe it’s about to be a week tomorrow?

i’ve been riding a wave of emotions since last tuesday.
optimism,
anger,
denial,
and now,
i’ve finally landed on full-blown depression.
there’s one question that just keeps playing on a loop in my head…

Does anyone else feel like they’re truly out of fucks now?

since tuesday,
there’s this hollow feeling in the air.
something else inside me has gone numb.
i feel…
indifferent?
maybe it’s because,
after watching the forest tilt into chaos,

i’ve lost the ability to feel surprised anymore.
it’s as if my soul already walked through the whole dark forest,
saw the tangled mess of things,
and i’m staring blankly at where this road will lead next.
i keep wondering…

yesterday,
i was about to do something silly.

I was gonna send a mass text to everyone in my phone,
letting them know that if they voted for that man,
or they didn’t vote at all,
that we would not be speaking again.

in fantasy,
that felt good.

“Yeah,
Jamari,
you’re sticking it to em!”

in reality,
that does more damage and is actually very childish.
so after i sat with myself for a little bit,
i decided to…