could you tell when the shift came?
for some,
you haven’t received it yet,
but it’s coming.
you’ll know because it comes after the bullshit.
it could be after taking a hard “L”,
an terrible break up,
or the death of someone you love.
i think i’m approach another shift in my life…

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i woke up on the wrong side of the cave today.
i felt like i didn’t get any sleep,
i’m battling a head cold,
the flu is trying to make me it’s bitch,
and i didn’t feel like going to work.
i did find joy in putting up this wolf for ig foxhole consumption:

um,
yum,
but even ^that was short lived.
so i could’ve spent the day moody,
but i wanted to try and snap out of it.
a first for me.
something inside told me to start watching videos of…
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i’ve been beating myself up.
i did it today.
hell i’ve done it everyday…
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there are things that happen in life,
where one must choose to think positive and think fast.
like, when you get a flat tire and you are in the middle of murder’s alley,
or when you are at an event and someone shows up wearing the same thing as you.
moments like that when you’re forced to think positive,
because you can cause the energy to shift around you and WHAM!
the shit storm will commenced all over your head.
so when i got a picture message from a vixen checking my mail,
with all the letters from unemployment today,
i immediately went into the “what if…” and “why?” part of my brain.
when they send random letters,
they want you to come into the office for that “let us know what you’ve been doing” shit.
tedious shit,
but if you don’t come in,
they cut your unemployment benefits off.
well i’m 1,146.8 miles away and i cannot go in.
i been trying to think positive all day.
maybe it’s just them trying to catch up?
maybe its worse than that?
who knows.
all i know is i’ll have to call them and tell them the truth of why I’m here.
not much i can do,
but why do i feel so scared to step out on faith?
maybe because when i did,
during these potential shit storms,
god didn’t come through.
could be a reason.
why does it seem easier for other people?
ugh.
let me go look at wolves or something.