we were cool af or so i thought.
he would come to me for advice and want to chill.
straight.
platonic.
it wasn’t until a vixen hinted i might be gay that it all changed.
suddenly,
it went from us being close to him avoiding me.
he wanted to save his reputation than our friendship.
it hurt because i thought he was my friend.

true story.
that ( x tyler lepley entry ) sort of triggered me.
i’ve lost straight “friends” over rumors of my sexuality.
once someone does a fox hunt on me…

some males don’t want to be guilty by association.
that’s a hurt that many gay males know all too well.
earlier today,
i got a call from scavenger asking me this question:

“Why do people think only gay people are the ones with HIV?”

it was a very “huh?” question,
but i let him know many straights are catching diseases out here too.
he went on to tell me how his home-wolf/jackal feels some kind of way about gay males…

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snakes.
in our forests can lie many snakes.
some are bold with their colors; others blend into the background.
sometimes,
you never see the snake in the grass until it bites you.
it’s the “they won’t ever do that to me” that fucks people up.

They were a snake to others,
but you thought you were immune to getting bit?

hmm.
one of my home-wolves got bitten by a snake in his garden yesterday.
it’s the size of the bite for me tho…

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