the kids todayyyyyyyy…
i can’t.
so this is a video making headlines everywhere.
a 15 year old vixen gets jumped by 5 she-jackals in mcdonalds.
flatbush bk.
well this was the disturbing footage…
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i’m getting on my knees tonight.
my boss and liar liar are not in.
when i asked god for a good week ahead,
he definitely came through with this good start.
so i called star fox’s mother to see how she was doing.
i like to check in on her from time to time.
we have gotten pretty closer as the year went on.
we got into a nice convo about the subject:

“giving god complete control of our life”

a subject and way of life i’m not good at.
last week,
i saw a quote from rihanna in the new harper’s bazaar.
it stuck with me.
the question the interviewer asked her was about her being fearless.
she said:

“R: I think I’m like most people—we fear the unknown and the things that have yet to come to pass, which are the very things that don’t deserve to be feared. When you give God complete control, it’s very hard not to be fearless.”

i found that answer so interesting.
i admire her for her attitude.
i’m sure she has issues,
but as you can tell,
she barely ever has fucks to give.
so that lead into the discussion today.
she gave me a link and told me only when i’m ready to say this prayer.
its the “prayer of surrendering”.
i’m ready to do it tonight before bed,
but i wanted to share it with the foxhole who is also ready.
so whenever you are ready to give up control,
this is what you need to say…
Continue reading “(I Want U) Control Me” →

so you all are definitely my foxhole.
i saw this video earlier today and thought of you.
you all obviously blew up my emails so i know you were thinking of me.
you know i love god.
my twitter feed on sunday is filled with notes from td jakes sermon.
god also knows that i love wolves.
he okay with that.
we already discussed.
well this one church hyena didn’t feel the same way.
god obviously hasn’t spoken to him yet.
 he went back into the holy ghost closet at the 107th Holy Convocation.
well… Continue reading “That Being Said, I’m Not Gay Anymore! (God Changed Me!)” →

if you know me,
one of my favorite sentences in life is:

“i have a question?”

well since you all know me through this blog,
i have a question for all of you who read me daily.
have you ever asked yourself…

Am I doomed?
Can anyone honestly answer this?…

Continue reading “God, Forgive Them For Their Sins” →

an f-bi just sent me this video of antoine dodson having a potential nervous breakdown.
in this strange video,
he starts talking to god and then breaks down in tears.
i guess being “straight” isn’t all it was cracked up to be?…
Continue reading “Antoine Dodson Is Living A Hard “Straight” Life” →

while other people are using god to spew hate at people,
or a female pop star with a blonde wig filled with creole power,
i was being self absorbed and using my god for my purpose.
god came through today for my tough times.
he used one of my readers to do it.
i could not be ever so grateful.
funny enough,
i prayed the night of unemployment-gate and tried to let it go.
as hard as it was,
i focused my energy on writing that story and keeping myself occupied.
well he answered my prayers today and im feeling blessed.
im starting to realize you have to seriously “let go and let god”.
he’s still working on me,
but i’m learning as we work together.

not a bible thumper.
just grateful.