I dropped you a note a few months back praising your site – and Im just here again to show you some love. My boy was just sentenced to 4 years for some bullshit assault he got himself involved in over a year ago. we have been writing back and forth – im just trying to help him keep his head up and not let his guard down. ANYWAY…I just read your piece from a few weeks back on “are you a fighter”  im definitely going to make a copy of that and send it to him.  Weve been friends for over 25 years and this piece of writing should awaken his soul.

Just thankful for your words and all that you are doing.

MY ANSWER…

Continue reading “f0xmail: A Thank You Letter (2)” →

YOU KNOW WHAT TIME IT IS…

Okay, so I have a dilemma hear. So I’ve written to you twice in the past. Once was about how to score a wolf in “The City” or as you like to call it, “The Concrete Forest”. So that was kind of a bust. So I really just got used to sticking to myself, and I got this mentality, that I needed to allow whatever is meant to be to happen, and let the chips fall into place itself. So I decided to stop looking before I eventually fuck shit up for myself, and let love, lust, a relationship, whatever you wanna call it come to me. So I’m doing my usual on Instagram, posting pictures, liking pictures, and I get a new follower. I don’t get hype over followers anymore because most of the are obsessive DL daddies or people looking to follow you, fuck you, and leave you that same night. I’ve had a bad experience with Instagram as I told you before, this guy gave me his number, and once we started talking, he started getting crazy via text message. So ever since then Instagram has been nothing but entertainment for me, nothing I take seriously. But anyways back to the story…

So I’m on Insatgram and I see this cute guy following me. He looks my age or around my age (I am 18 btw). So I follow back, he likes some pics, so I like some pics. So I decide to be spontaneous and leave a comment on his pic asking him for his FB. He has no FB so he gives me his Kik, so we begin to chat on there. He seems like he communicates well, he seemed nice, respectful, kind, sexy, mysterious, sweet. Only thing that bothered me at that point is that he lived Upstate 5 hrs away. All the things you look for. But everything was going to perfect. Until, I asked him how old he was. Jamari, he replied:

16.

Now I know I am 18, and he’s 16. To many two years ain’t nothing. But when you’re a teen, and in this Lifestyle, it isn’t cool or normal to talk with 16 year old. So I became apprehensive and I joked with him about his age, he joked back about how young he was, and joked and called me old. He was just so damn cute. So we exchanged numbers and hit it off.

We’ve only been talking for like, 18 days, but well into the first week it was just a closeness I felt with him. We would ooVoo, I would talk with his sister, we would have late night “ooVoo sex”. I just felt a connection with him, a bond, I felt like he was my distant lover, I felt like he was my younger brother. But things were moving too well, and then stuff got complicated. Even though were only two years apart, we are at two completely different stages in my life. I’m 18 heading off to my freshman year in college, meanwhile he just turned 16 a month before we start talking, and he is starting his junior year of High School. He has to ask for permission for everything, he only has one lap top so he has to ask his dad to use it all the time. And our schedules just got so messed up we began having to schedule time to talk, so everything just got harder and more stressful.

So long story short, I caught feelings for dude fast, as well as he did with me. However, things have switched gears already. I feel like he wants to be the one in charge. People will think because I’m oldest it would be me, but he is VERY Headstrong, he knows what he wants and likes. We argue a lil, but its nothing. I want him to come down one weekend when I have the free crib so we can chill and do some other “stuff” you know, fuck. But he has to ask his dad, and we have to plan for him to leave upstate on a Friday and have him back by Sunday. Jamari, I like this guy. Today he told me “he has love for me” and I told him “I have love for him” and we both know this is growing into something special. But I just can’t deal with the kiddie bullshit. The going to school and getting hype about school fights (yes, he text me about how happy he was that he saw a fight), I can’t deal with his immaturity, he seems to have communication skills, and he has trouble expressing his emotions. I can’t deal with the asking your parents for everything, I’m 18 now, I have my diploma, I’m off to college in January, I don’t need her permission for shit. He has to ask his parents for everything, and he just doesn’t have that much freedom to leave and spend this weekend we’re planning to be together. He’s a special guy, but his age, immaturity, and where he lives, gets in the way of us progressing. I like him a lot but I’m still weighing out my options, because I’m only 18.

Jamari, what should I do about this situation. I know I come off as a kid, but I have my stuff together, and what I don’t I am trying my hardest to get in order. I need your help bro.

P.S: I love you and everything you have accomplished with the site. You’ve created a place where it’s okay for us to communicate no matter how we live our lifestyle. It’s very judgement free, but fun. Thanks. Wish you well with everything.

MY ANSWER…

Continue reading “f0xmail: This Young Wolf Wants To Be My Daddy… But I’m Older Than Him. Help!!” →

Hey J,

Wassup?

I have to tell you that i met this wolf and Ive been talking to him for a couple of weeks now… and he told me that he is a professional fighter, so I looked him up and turns out he’s the real deal. Hes not married or anything but he has a daughter. He is a sweet guy and all, but Im kinda hesitant with dating someone that can beat my ass with his pinky o_O…. Due to his celebrity i cannot disclose who he is, but do you think I should go further with him. Btw we havent had sex yet, you know I dont do one stands…. But the thing is Im just a little hesitant on dating a FIGHTER, I would have to deal with seeing him after fights with a swollen face and a bloody nose bruises scratches. IDK Im having mixed feeling here…SMH

Let me know what you think about it.

MY ANSWER…

i always appreciate the love.
i love the emails.
it keeps me going especially when things get dark in my world.
it just takes an email like this one to make the sun come out…

Continue reading “f0xmail: A Thank You Letter (1)” →

another one.
and a deep one at that…

Hey whats Up Jamari…

Since I think of you like a friend in my head *quote on quote Wendy Williams* I wanted to come to you about a situation and I know you will be honest and was hoping you can help….

So I am HIV Positive, and have been for three years now, and it has been a hard road for me but i have been strong since I was diagnosed, I recently got out of a relationship and my ex told me that he had been hearing things from people that i am naive, and dumb..he also said that I like to play the victim and at this point its getting a little played out and some ways I don’t feel like I am, people know but its only in certain groups that people don’t like me because of it, or they think i’m nasty or a whore,but was raped by two people who didn’t tell me in a attempts I try not to be a victim and want others to feel sorry for me, but I have emotions that are sometimes very sensitive, The nature of who I am is very passive and a sensitive person, he told me the victim role I play is getting a little worn out (dassel in distress and thatI need to grow up and basically stop using it as an excuse, how do I get over being a victim, and recently he cheated on me and I brought it up to him because I guess I’m hurt and the person he is with is still having a friendship/sex with them and isn’t talking to me, I guess blaming him is a way of being a victim but however would you know know what I can do,  I’m going on 21 and I cant be miserable and depressed forever, its hard and I really want to be happy not miserable all the time, its not fun, and I want to be in love but guys seem to leave me after five months maybe i’m doing something, all I get is that I have good sex never a full term relationship, idk its alot going on and I hope this isnt to much for you either but, what should I do, any thoughts and what would you suggest?…

MY ADVICE…

Continue reading “f0xmail: I Am HIV Positive and My Boyfriends Think I’m Playing The Victim! Help!” →

Jamari I need your advice….

I’m trying to move on from an Ex but it’s just not as simple as it should be. Let me first tell you about the relationship. Two years ago I moved out to Houston Texas to start a new job. I had no friends and no family so I was basically on my own there. Anyway I met my ex boyfriend who we can refer to as “Dream Wolf” at the Gym…i know typical typical. He was a trainer there and the moment we locked eyes it was fucking magic….Like I was speechless and surprisingly he was too. Dream Wolf is 6’2, mixed, and wonderfully built. Actually at the time he was a part time model and his pictures are all over tumblr….some probably are even on here. Anyway he kept trying to make jokes on the way I lift and give tips and he was pretty funny. I liked him…. we saw each other at the gym a few times before exchanging numbers.

Soon after we started dating and it got so serious that we got a place together last summer. Everything was cool for the first two months, sex was okay, I met his mom, he met mine,I would cook, sometimes he would cook, and basically I built a whole new life with him and his friends. The problem was that he was on the low and about 5 years older than me I was about 22 and he was about 27. No one knew the truth about us except a few female friends which wasn’t a problem until he started having baby fever. It might had to do with him getting closer to 30 but he really wanted a baby and he even brought up the idea of us adopting one together. He was really adamant on the idea. So much so that he started working as a manager at Home depot and basically put modeling aside. He also was willing to help put me through med school when I applied. Ever since then I started having bad feelings over the relationship. I started to think we were moving waaaaay too soon and what sense did it make for us to adopt kids when we’re not out. All of those doubts plus alot of small shit made me want to get out of the relationship. And he was a nice guy about it.

Fast forward a year and “Dream Wolf” now has his “Dream Fiance” pregnant with his “Dream Baby“. We tried to remain friends after the breakup which was cool until he met her. She’s perfect Jamari. Even I like the bitch. But it just got to the point where I couldn’t be friends with him no longer….I got tired of seeing their pictures and posts on FB and twitter. So I tried deleting Dream Wolf from my life which was kinda hard since we have so many mutual friends. And now it seems like everything has been going wrong without him in my life.

I lost my job. I had to relocate back home. I’ve been struggling ever since. I just really feel almost like GOD made this man for me….I through him away….and now he is punishing me. When I think about Jamari…nothing was wrong with Dream Wolf. He was a cornball and even though that got on my nerves I miss that and him. Now that I’m putting my life back together I just feel angry at myself and bitter. Like I have no clue on how to move on????? It’s been 4 months since we last talk and I thought I would be over it but I’m not. I’m so bitter that Im not even open to when other wolves BOLDLY try to holla at me on the street.

I want to know Was I stupid for letting him go?
How do I let him go?
And how do I stop hatting myself and feeling so bitter?
Should I try to be friends again?

Let me know your opinion…

BITTER FOXX

MY ADVICE…

Continue reading “f0xmail: My Dream Wolf Now Has His Dream Bitch and She Is Pregnant… and I Want Him Back!!! HELP!” →