Bi-polar and Antidepressants

the closure to why lee thompson young committed suicide have finally been released.
eta: i literally just asked myself the other day if his death will just go down without answers.
god seems to answer my random questions when i ask.
well there was no foul play.
that’s good.
just someone who kept a smile on their face to hide the pain inside.
nbc news take it away…

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You Made Me Commit Suicide Because You Outed Me. Happy Now?

so you’ve been outed!
wow that sucks.
no seriously, thats fuckin’ sucks.
who did it?
when are we shooting them?
in this lifestyle,
there are many ways that you can be outed.
there is the messing with the messy.
this one i never understood especially when all the signs are usually there.
some queen (masc or fem) you fucked,
or fucked you,
decides to put all your bedroom biz out.
uploading your sex tape online or blab about it on some blog/message board.
there is the angry or nosy vixen way.
she gets mad and decides to go on attack mode with your sexuality.
her excuse is you were cheating with a man and the world needed to know.
could be true or could be that you ended it and she couldn’t handle the truth.
other vixens simply have no reason and just like to cause drama.
lastly there is the ex friend(s) you had to get rid of.
you started to see that you outgrown them.
they see that you are moving on so they pull you out the closet as revenge.
you didn’t clap back to provoke it.
some people are just way too spiteful and bitter.
whatever the reason,
being outed sucks and seems to be the new thing for this decade.
i often wondered how do people really handle being outed?
suicide?
depression?
thoughts of mass murder?
as a celebrity or baller wolf,
they have a good team that can spin the story.
many of us aren’t celebs and can’t afford ( x these lovely people ).
i’m all for exposing someone who was doing evil,
passing along hiv and such,
but i had to wonder…

Why punish someone by outing the innocent?

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The Sweet Scent of Depression and Suicide Within The Air

think about this.
you are enjoying a perfect day.
sun is shining.
the wind smells so crisp.
you are wearing the perfect outfit.
everything fits you to a tee.
nothing could fuck up the day.
well, think about the opposite.
it’s raining hard.
everything just seems to be going wrong.
nothing can put a smile on your face.
you just want to go home and crawl into bed.
every thought you have feels heavy.
you just want to sleep.
maybe forever if you could.
that’s depression.
they say 120 million people on this planet suffer from it.
does that include everyone on social media?
so many people trying to play perfect.
their smiles so big on facebook.
bodies so sweet on instagram.
they tweet about their lives like it’s something out a movie.
they try to be modern day celebrities.
“why isn’t that me?”
“am i doing something wrong?”
you start to dig yourself into an emotional grave.
oh i been there.
trust.
“no one wants to hear about your problems so why even talk about it?”
i guess that’s why we are so shocked when they commit suicide.
life is funny that way.
when it comes to depression…

Why are we so scared to admit it?

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“Your Work Is Brilliant But You Are Gay As Shit.”

spoken by a true lady.

tyler perry bugs me.
i appreciate his bringing work to blacks and blah blah blah…
but he gets on my nerves.
something about him is starting not to seem genuine.
believe me when i say,
he is more smokes and mirrors.

i got an interesting email from a wolf about this story below.
it was pretty deep and i felt it needed to be shared.
scared me a little bit with a thought i was having too…

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