How do you grieve someone you weren’t supposed to love?

I knew he was married.

Father God,
I come to you asking for your protection over myself and everyone in my life.
Those who stand by me and even those i struggle to get along with.
Clear our paths of any danger,
heal our bodies from any illness,
and remove anyone who isn’t good for us from our lives.
Let any evil intentions directed toward us be stopped in their tracks and returned to their sender tenfold.
Amen.

there is something going around where folks are dropping like flies.
i was absolutely shocked ( x when liam payne lost his life last week ).
don’t even get me started on ( x jay hefner ) and his tragic end.
it has been death after death amongst the rest of the the doom and gloom in the forests.
The Foxhole alerted me we lost a gay black porn star recently…

I had to wonder:
Have you ever wondered what happens when the pursuit of acceptance turns into a debt trap?

i’m learning to be glad i wasn’t accepted when i desperately wanted to be.
God was really looking out for me.
it left me with the ability to be transparent about the good and the bad.
others i know,
sadly,
would probably die if their followers knew the truth about their lives.
they’ve created such a highlight reel that there’s no going back.
take brandon miller for example.

while his wife,
candice miller,
was vacationing in europe,
he deleted himself in the garage of their flaunted crib.
why?…

foxhole:

I cannot stop thinking about The Fall of the House of Usher on Netflix

that show has been living in my head rent free after i binged it.
one thing tho:

Victorine’s death still has me confused

did she take her own life after she realized what she did?
or did she go mad and was under the influence of “bat shit crazy”?
i found a video where the cast was explaining their character deaths.

i saw a comment about prospero aka perry,
played by sauriyan sapkota,
who was the youngest sibling:

^they were offended by perry’s death and but tbh…

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the foxhole is worldwide.
i get so many dms and love from foxholers from different forests.
few have told me that i was their comfort in some homophobic countries.
that meant a lot to me because when i was coming up and all alone,
i needed a blanket of comfort and a community as well.

I want to send my prayers to any foxholers in Uganda atm.

if you’re gay out there,
you’re going to prison for life (or put to death) with a new law…

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 aaron carter‘s death had me thinking last night.
first off,
i remember when he came out with music.
i wasn’t into boybands but i knew he was nick carter from bsb’s brother:

at that time,
the siblings of stars were trying to get put on too.
he was troubled for quite some time.
the last i saw is that he had an onlyans and it was pretty awful.
he seemed to have been carrying something heavy for him to be like that.
the thing is…

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