last season,
we saw two brothers engage in incest-like relations on the white lotus.
game of thrones crawled so these other shows could walk tbh.
in past entries,
i have had a few Foxholers share about experimenting with incest as kids.
that topic was always very taboo and/or “it was who explored my curiosity with first“.
it seems like kanye might be blowing the lid off his own secrets.
pun actually intended.
in an alleged “journaling tweet” of his,
he admits to having a close relationship with his cousin.
by close,
i meannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn…

i only really understood my mother when she was on her deathbed.
before that,
i was a rebellious teenager.
in her final months,
we finally talked and i apologized for pushing her away.
lately,
my older cousin has been sharing stories about my mother.
i didn’t just inherit her features; i have her rebellious spirit too.
we started talking about my grandmother and i opened up about the abuse she put me through.
i was always afraid to tell anyone but my cousin actually listened.
he said something that stuck with me…

one thing that amuses me with some anti-vaxxers is:

They will hitch their wagons to whoever is speaking out about the vaccine.

i’ve noticed the person(s) involved is usually loud and wrong.
nicki minaj might have been loud and wrong.
allegedly,
her cousin in trinidad had an interesting side effect due to the vaccine.
she spoke out about it,
and her hesitance because of her own testicles apparently,
in a tweet:

My cousin in Trinidad won’t get the vaccine cuz his friend got it & became impotent. His testicles became swollen. His friend was weeks away from getting married, now the girl called off the wedding. So just pray on it & make sure you’re comfortable with ur decision, not bullied

— Nicki Minaj (@NICKIMINAJ) September 13, 2021

the trinidad health minister,
terrence deyalsingh,
had this to say in a statement via cnn…

Continue reading “nicki minaj has whole countries talking about her (when will your favs?)” →

i woke up this morning and saw 7 missed calls on my phone.
they were all around 6 am.
it was from mi’s aunt.
instantly,
i felt a fear come over me.

“Is this it?
Is this the call?”

mi has been on my mind lately.
when i called,
all i heard was her aunt screaming.
this is when i started to pace around my apartment.
i pace around my apartment when i’m worried.
i’ll walk around my kitchen to the living room in a complete circle.

“_______ died!
She died!””

i couldn’t understand the name,
but once she got it out…

Continue reading “a death in (mi) family” →

my reality is different from some of my family members it seems.
i’m starting to realize that.
even though i love my grandmother,
it is no secret that she was abusive to us.
i think many caribbean people faced a shit ton of abuse.
the last conversation i had with my father made me realize something…

Continue reading “being raised in barbados wasn’t all sunshine and palm trees” →

ya know,
we don’t realize how much we are blessed.
yeah,
shit sucks right now,
but things could be so much worse.
trust me,
i can be the biggest drama fox at times,
but i get it.
so i was talking to an ex-co worker tonight.
i don’t know if i mentioned it,
but she lost her cousin to the rona a few couple ago.
well she had another family member who got the rona as well…
Continue reading “how to lose not one, but two family members, because of the rona” →