i deleted everything.
first step….
i cleaned out my entire phone.
i erased any reminders of the past.
i did an all around refresh.
it was time to officially move on.
i mean i been saying it,
but i wasn’t putting action towards progress.
i erased everything out of my gratitude journal,
cleaned out all my notes,
made a whole new vision board,
and said a quick prayer after i was done.
“God.
i’m grateful for all that i’ve been through.
i know you took me through so i could learn.
if it wasn’t for you,
i wouldn’t be here right now.
please help me start over.
allow all the things that are not good for me to vanish quietly.
allow me to be stronger and ready for battle.
change me for the better.
amen.”
the hardest part is starting over.
that unknown is an absolute mind fuck.
the things you were comfortable with are a bitch to remove.
i realized something tho.
things we were comfortable with can suddenly get uncomfortable.
that is why i needed a new start.
i was way too distracted with someone else.
someone that probably wasn’t good for me.
i had to see it for myself.
so i’ve wiped the slate clean.
“goodbye” can often times start a “hello”.
…oh and i found a therapist.
the appointment is tomorrow after work.
an older snow vixen.
the issue is if she takes my insurance.
wish me luck?
Thank goodness! I can tell this is gonna be your year. Congrats!
Congratulations J. It must be a Gemini thing because I am doing the EXACT SAME THING YOU ARE DOING..lol It is time for a new.
Congratulations, Jamari! Letting go of the old, opens you to the new. You know I am happy you are finally going to see a therapist. Sending good vibrations your way!
When referring to God always use big G, little g refers to the devil.
So proud of you! You are going to be fine. Good luck!
Good luck with the therapist and starting anew.
Inspiring!!! Good look J!
Congrats man! I see many blessings in your future!
Thank you for inspiring me to do the same.
YOU AIN’T GIVE THAT WATCH BACK THO! j/k
You know somebody was going to say that eventually.
Reading your post inspire me to start fresh too. I don’t want to be too comfortable where I’m at, it time for a change. And since it is March so why the hell not…. But I know it must have been hard to delete you-know-who from your contact. I’m glad you found a therapist. Btw thanks for reminding me, I need to renew my mood board
Yea, I need to do the same with my contact list ASAP, and I am proud of you for doing that.
I am interested to hear how this therapist thing turns out as well.
I need to follow suit….
I read a quote.If you are brave enough to say goodbye,life will reward you with a new hello.#newbeginnings
“You know you love me. xoxo, Gossip Girl”.
^my fav drama.
too bad it for crazy at the end and they fucked it up royally.
Love the changes you’re making. I have a tendency to hold on to old text messages and pictures so I can look back on the good times but they are things that actually tug at the heart strings and make it harder to let go of people that need to be out of my life. Good for you.
P.S. I prey she takes your insurance if not maybe she can point you in the direction of some who do.
^i am an emotional hoarder.
i will keep things way past their expiration date for memories.
with “him” out the way,
i can get back to me and how selfish I use to be about my life.
Fingers crossed that she will take your insurance. You already know I’m wishing you good luck, you got this buddy.
^thanks e!
Congrats! The first step is the purge and next is the rebuild I am honestly and truthfully proud of you for taking these steps. It’s hard to do but at the end it will make you into a better man.
^you are so legit on the purge.
i am letting go of everything “him”.
starting fresh.