there was a vixen who i knew that was talking to wolf of interest.
he was cute and playing the “distant wolf” thing.
you know the types.
he creates a mystery about himself and usually nothing is there.
so i asked her what has she learned anything about him.
she gon’ say:

“I don’t know.
I don’t ask him questions.”

head went on instant swivel.
tf you mean you don’t ask him questions?
you know why dating sucks nowadays?…

I’m going to use Charlie as an example for this upcoming entry.
Disclaimer: I’m NOT implying that Charlie is down for the Foxhole.
There is no confirmation besides he is STRAIGHT as far as I know.
I still think he is fine AF even though he annoyed me being on that reality show.
I tell/font him that to his face but I digress…

i read a reddit sub a while back where a fox met a fine wolf at the gym,
and the wolf legit started talking to him out of interest,
and the fox was asking himself:

“Why would he even be interested in me?”

…because he felt he wasn’t “just as fine” too.
apparently,
the fox is average in all areas.
so let’s font that the fox goes on autopilot and later on down the road,
they fall into in a relationship because the wolf is genuinely into him…

The insecurities that this Wolf triggered out this Fox would cause him to fuck up this potential relationship.

so it made me think about dating those we think are out our league.
it led me back to a conversation with a friend the other day.
she showed me an IG post of tyler lepley and i asked her…

^A discussion I was having with a Foxholer earlier about an Attentionisto.
One who allegedly deals with other males if he has a connection with them.
This Foxholer knows said Attentionisto.
The “her” is really a “he”.

looking back,
i realize that every time i got caught up with certain wolves:

Work Wolf
WW3
Light Bright

i had this insecure fear about sex.
not sex itself…

Let’s be 110% in The Foxhole…

vixens,
including gays,
claim we want ^this.
the real issue is,
and folks can deny all they want…

one night,
while wolf wolf and I were in the streets,
we had a big blow up.
it ended with him asking me:

“What?
You jealous of her or something?”

i was.
i never really admitted how work wolf and i ended.
that conversation with karaoke triggered a lot of time to reflect.
my jealousy and spitefulness over him played a big part but…

“Jamari,
your readers can’t tell you what we saw.
We were there and you were dating that dude…”

there was also many things i didn’t share.
so i was having a conversation with karaoke today.
we got into a bunch of topics about relationships,
but the one about my relationship with work wolf randomly came up.
i never wanted to believe i was dated work wolf.
i thought dating was something completely different…