i could not wait to get to therapy yesterday.
some therapy sessions are just venting,
but when i find out something about myself,
i get excited that i want to share it.
after i unloaded about yesterday’s entry,
i wanted to share a technique he did that really helped…

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the desire to suck the dick of who or what is popular has ruined our lives.
folks will enjoy being treated like shit just to put the figurative inches in their mouth.
i like suckin’ dick for pleasure and a good time.

i don’t suck dick because they have followers on ig or connects.

You know how many dicks I can suck on…

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“this image is no longer available” speaks to this entry.
at some point in our lives,
we will fall from our pedestals.
that is where we will see exactly who is in our corner.
nothing is worst than when you fall and folks choose someone else.
you’re out; your replacement is in.
i found these moments in life reveal the real from the fakes.
it’s a hard lesson but:

Some of those folks that are skinning and grinning in your face don’t really like you.

Some folks are waiting for someone to clap at you so they can take off the mask.

if you have/had a fall from grace,
i’m gonna suggest something for you to do that i do…

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everyone thinks content creating is an easy job,
but honestly,
it isn’t.
from creating movies,
acting,
clothing lines,
making albums,
blogging,
vlogging,
to whatever you do that is creative,
it takes a shit ton of emotional work to do.
folks think that i wake up every day and come on here and just write.
i always get asked questions like:

“How can I make a blog like yours?”

…and i’ve always struggled with the answer.
i can tell someone to start a blog or turn on the camera.
it’s easy to do that,
but there is more that comes with it on an emotional level.
i was thinking about it for the last few days and came up with a few thoughts…

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stop worrying about your reputation.
it means nothing out in these forests.
fairytales told us that the good ones win in the end.
*cough* bullshit.
they said the villains get defeated and banished from all the lands.
*cough* more bullshit.
i was having a conversation with the pretty vixen yesterday about reputations.
i was telling her that you gotta look good in other eyes but she countered it’s all lies…

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accountability and holding myself accountable.
my therapist told me i should try something new.
at the end of every week,
whether saturday or sunday,
write an entry about:

Good things that happened (no matter how small)
Things I struggled with

get everything i need to get out as far as feelings and emotions.
at the end of every entry,
add the next steps for the upcoming week.
in doing this,
it helps others understand they aren’t alone and can help them take accountability too.
i don’t expect many to respond,
but i’m willing to try this for myself and my development…

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