Category: SOMETHING OPRAH WOULD TELL YOU
no spelled backward is on and you should be gone (on is in gone)

“The worst they can do is tell you no.” – Karaoke said to me the other day
the word “no” is scary.
we think we are good enough and end up getting rejected.
we end up being scorned and don’t want to try for anything anymore.
karaoke and i were talking about approaching things boldly and asking for what we want.
i use to be so scared of rejection because of my past trauma due to rejection.
it all came from a fear of being judged and wanting to control things tbh.
so i’d wait for someone to say “yes” while wasting my time deciphering signs and games.
i’ve learned the hard way that:
“Mixed signals or hesitation means no.”
i was watching something with law roach the other day.
he is the vision behind many of zenadaya’s looks.
law is dope and i fux with him so far.
during this podcast discussion with “the cutting room floor”,
he spoke about all the big brands who told him “no” for zendaya to wear their clothes.
this is what he said that gave me my oprah “a-ha” moment…
mr exotic cries because doesn’t feel like he is enough

some people love to promote they turn to sex work because its “empowering“.
the reality for many others is:
They heard its a quick way to make money but they get way over their heads and drown by the pressure of their internal conflicts.
OF sex working wolf,
mr exotic,
decided to pour his heart out on twitter.i refuse to call that x btw.
while all the gays in his comments have their kneepads on with open mouths of comfort,
this is what i observed about the video…
i was having a pity party yesterday and someone gave me a present

It is the little things God provides for me.
yesterday,
i decided to host a pity party.
it was raining,
i was tired AF,
one of the Foxholers shared something with me that made me really sad,
and i was emotionally not in the best place.
sometimes,
it’s not a great day for a pity party.
we can’t always be together and posting spiritual captions on our IG.
sometimes,
shit just sucks.
i sent this text to one of my sisters from another:

yes,
i had on adele.
i was already hitting the gas to 100 for maximum depression.
i was happy that i wasn’t the only one throwing a pity party tbh.
so as i was celebrating my pity on my couch,
something told me to check my phone.
when i looked,
i saw that i had a tweet that said…
beyonce gets dragged by one of her top villains for this country-inspo album

my only regret in life is it took me a really long time to realize this.
because of my trauma,
i always tried to be seen in a good light.
it was always met with criticism that made me question myself.
you could do everything perfectly,
dotting all “i”‘s and crossing all “t”‘s…
They’ll still talk about you like you are filth.
i’m really excited about beyonce dippin’ her feet into country.
i’m a country-lite fan myself but i love when bey puts her spin on things.
i love the two singles she released in anticipation of “cowboy carter“.
she released the album cover yesterday with this caption:
…which i really liked tremendously.
azealia banks doesn’t like any of it and had this to font…
my specific friendship icks that you could learn from

i saw this tweet and saw my life flash before my eyes.
i saw past friendships,
frenemies,
and all kinds of bitches from my mental spin around the friendship block.
i can’t font for others but this is simply from my own experiences…
learn to use the straights before they try to use you

as a black gay content creator,
who has launched the Foxhole in 2009,
i learned the hard way how many straights can use you for their benefit.
i’ve seen other gays who do content or have pull get used as well.
if you have a “i want to be liked” spirit,
or “i want to fuck every attractive and sexy male” spirit,
you will always fall into their traps to your doom every time.
the hard reality is…
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