Category: A LIL TASTE OF JAMARI
i regret not smashin’ that man
Regrets or nah?
I was really into a wolf-turned-jackal.
I though he was cute and I wanted to fuck.
It seemed like he was on the same page as I was.
Someone else was into him too and I ended up in this weird triangle situation.
It ended up turning into this big mess where I ended up being the villain.
For a long time,
I regretted even being interested.
I blamed myself because others were blaming me.
I’ve come to conclusion that I wasn’t wrong for my feelings.
Everyone involved wasn’t wrong for how they felt.
He was interested in me and another couldn’t figure it out.
That doesn’t sound like a “me” problem.
I should be more mad because I wanted to fuck and that got ruined.
I wrote an entry last year.
It involved someone who I knew much about prior.
I’m sent in stories that appear to be juicy and I like sharing with The Foxhole.
I posted the story without even giving much thought.
It was an entry that you had to have access to see so it wouldn’t be on Google.
It created such a mess and it STILL has someone feeling upset.
I blamed myself because I questioned whether I should have posted the story.
I’ve come to the conclusion that folks have misdirected anger towards me.
regrets.
we all have them.
there are things we have done that we look back and shake our heads.
i’ve learned something about another aspect of having regrets tho…
i think it’s time you took your shadow on a date in the light
Q: Do you struggle with showing yourself compassion? How does showing yourself compassion make you feel?
A: I have struggling showing myself compassion in the past due to feeling like I do things wrong. Showing myself compassion was difficult because I was taught that I was a “bad kid” who should know better. I didn’t know what showing myself compassion looked like.
Foxhole,
over the years,
i briefly taken you deep inside my dark side where my shadow resides.
insecurity,
jealously,
hurt,
anger,
and trauma reside.
we all have a dark side within us where our shadows live.
our shadows are the things we keep hidden from the light.
many of us choose to be honest or lie in fear of judgment.
it’s like the attentionistos who are always positive is actually jackals bts.
We all have a shadow side that we shine light away from anyone really knowing us.
They find out who we are once they get to know us and our masks start slipping off.
as you know,
i’m big on mental health stuff.
i think many of us could find value in shadow work.
what is shadow work?
in a nutshell…
everyone is mentally ill now and it’s so awesome!
Eee-Yikes.
i love when i see this she-jackal doing the most.
( x see another the most moment from her here )
i remember every single @ i saw being idiots.
everyone was hoping that baby would change chrisean rock.
they hoped and wished when she left blueface,
she would be magically cured of all her troubles.
welp.
she was walking around the entire pandemic without a front tooth.
why would anyone assume otherwise from her?
so i’m gonna font this with my whole chest…
the kindness that i can’t remember doing
a friend of mine gifted me something out of nowhere the other day.
just randomly and it had me confused.
i definitely appreciated that blessing because i needed it.
so he said:
“Remember when I was broke and you paid something off for me for a year?”
…uh,
no.
i def didn’t remember.
when i do things for people,
i do it and move on with my life.
“See,
you don’t remember because you are a good person.”
so i thought to myself…
Continue reading “the kindness that i can’t remember doing”i want you to keep showing up
when i’m going through something heavy,
like i have been for the last weeks and plenty of change,
i’m usually scrolling to find a message.
a message in my time of need when i’m feeling despair.
it could be a church sermon or some random pineapple on IG.
yesterday,
as i was sitting in a bath,
God spoke to me with the message i “be” looking for.
someone else needed to hear this…
he likes to box but his opponent be weak?
they say to be a good boxer,
you need to have a few things.
Speed
Endurance
Strength
Agility
…and gloves to protect you.
all of that is great if the opponent can handle the fight.
if not,
you could as well bring a pillow and a blanket.
as you know,
or didn’t,
but big blaze aka blaze bowen is a boxer.
his opponent,
however…
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