have you ever met someone who seemed to be exactly what you were looking for?
in the beginning,
it’s perfect!
you feel like it’s a match made in heaven.
as with most relationships after the honeymoon phase,
and you both start getting use to each other,
things start to change.
the spark fades and you’re left clinging to “the incentive”,
whatever that may be.

now,
imagine meeting someone new while you are with your main.
someone who blows your mind.

the chemistry is undeniable,
the sex is phenomenal,
and every encounter feels like an adventure.
they’re exciting,
captivating,
but they lack “the incentive” that your main has.
you start to wonder if you could look past it.
could you give up the familiarity and stability,
even if it means downgrading?

Is it worth leaving your main and starting over?

this is the dilemma i’ve been grappling with…

I couldn’t help but wonder:
Why do we crave acceptance so bad from the obviously wrong people?

when we desperately need someone(s) and they sense that,
they’ll use it to control us.
they’ll push you to see just how far up their ass you’re willing to go.
for some,
the entrance while others look for a home in their colon.
a jackal from my past has a grudge against me…

ever since someone on the foxhole said britney spears dances like a cheerleader,
i haven’t been able to un-see it.
are these cheerleader dance moves here too:

i’m scared of the answer.
she always seemed inspired by janet than madonna.
well,
to me anyway.
like i fonted on my ig story over the weekend:

Britney Spears life turned out to be so sad

she always struck me as a really sweet vixen,
but many a jackal sniffed out that sweetness and used it to destroy her.
i saw a lot of folks talking about her recently and i was wondering wtf was going on.
the pretty vixen sent me her latest documentary,
“the new york times presents framing britney spears” on hulu,
and it was a lot to unpack.
i had to wonder tho…

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last night,
i got swept up into a show on hulu that took me under until 5am.
as you can imagine,
i’m tired af,
but it was well worth it.
the show was called…

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