Don’t you ever get tired of dealing with people’s shady bullshit?

this morning,
i found myself headed dangerously close on the edge of sanity,
ready to go nuclear over someone’s latest nonsense.
someone i already know to be a certain way but hoping for a different outcome.
my bad.
in life,
we are going to face all kinds of abusive assholes.
i’ve always liked an asshole up front where i can see them.
i hate the ones who throws stones and hides behind a mask of innocence.
thankfully,
a dear friend pulled me back from the brink with a simple yet profound truth…

STORY TIME

one year for christmas in barbados,
the primary school i went to threw this huge event for us before vacation.
i remember seeing tons of presents in the school yard.
i went to a prestigious private school so kids were upper middle to rich.
so the presents were big and beautiful wrapped.
i didn’t want to get my hopes up that i would see anything for me.
all the kid’s parents had shown up but i didn’t see anyone there for me.
my mother,
i think,
was on a plane headed somewhere.
my father didn’t show up.
none of my other family member showed up either.
it was just me alone in that school,
watching proud parents cheering on their kids.
so i go to the pile and look through to see if i see anything for me.
i see one little box with my name on it…

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someone told me the reason i’m always disappointed,
and ultimately depressed,
is because of my high expectations.

jobs
wolves
folks
career aspirations

i’ve gone through life getting my hopes up about most things.
i create the “fantasy” scenario of how i’d hope things would work out.
that has been something i’ve been doing for years actually.
i figured that it was better than being pessimistic about life/love.
my parents taught me to wake up everyday and expect a great day.
welp…
it seems i might have been going about my life all wrong.
it could explain why i’ve been disappointed consistently.
so i’m starting to wonder…

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expectations.
we all have them.
from jobs to potential mates,
we have a list of things we expect them to do.
well i’m learning i may expect a little too much…
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