my worst fear realized.
so i’m in the crib this morning,
washing dishes,
listening to the word from dallas.
i look and see this thing curled up in the drain.
at first i thought it may have been a tea bag or something.
nope.
it was a dead mouse.
yup.
dropped all the shit and ran out the kitchen.
i stayed in my bedroom for practically the entire afternoon.
i wanted to come write something about introverts,
but i couldn’t even get my mind right to focus.
funny enough,
i kept having these visions a mouse was in my crib.
there was no mouse droppings anywhere.
no sign of anything.
i just had a feeling something may be in my apartment.
well i was right.
and i fucking flipped.
i went and asked my neighbor’s mama if she could come get it.
#noshame
#wasinbitchmode
#menahcurr
she was nice enough to get it.
i haven’t seen a mouse in here in years.
one came in through a crack in my closet a couple years ago.
got that fixed.
now we dying in my drain?
how the fuck it got in my sink?
i don’t leave food anywhere.
i put all my scraps in a bag for the freezer.
i leave nothing out.
empty trash regularly.
how in every bit of mickey mouse fuck….?
i can’t and will not.
dead ass i was about to move.
i wasn’t even playing.

when you see me,
you see someone of your fantasies.
you see someone that you desire.
yet, you make it so difficult.
it doesn’t have to be this hard baby.
you can get all of this.
oh.
oh, i get it.
it’s you, not me.
we aren’t breaking up.
it’s your insecurities waving the white flag….
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i now see why down low wolves are annoying.
things could be so simple,
yet they make it so hard.
not everything has to be a trip to a hamster maze.
especially when they want to rip your clothes off with their teeth.
i will admit,
i like to toy with the forbidden.
that is where my fox like senses come into play.
clearly sex.
i just like excitement…. now.
before it use to piss me off.
but, i get “it“.
but, i often wondered why does it have to take so long to get there?
why do i have to wait?
he should know my patience is awful?
oh.
oh i get it.
i do not look obvious.
as much as that is a gift; it is often a curse.
i started to wonder…

Is it really easier to meet down low wolves online?

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