inside jamari fox

so a lot of nonsense happened at the grammys last night.
some things i cared about; other things are whatever.
i love bey and jay,
been riding with them for a long time and attended some of their concerts,
but what jay said on the grammys stage last night…

i knew this was gonna happen.
it’s a tale as old as time from an underdog.
we have to thank nicki minaj and the barbz for this.

???? | Billboard Hot 100 Chart Predictions:

1. 'HISS' (NEW)
— Peak: #1 | Weeks: 1

pic.twitter.com/hkjbmqYdrt

— Stallion Stats (@MegansStats) February 3, 2024

Apple Music Daily Charts— Top 100 Songs

Global — #4. ‘HISS’ (-1) *peak #1*
US — #2. ‘HISS’ (-1) *peak 1* https://t.co/lggxizf7c7

— Stallion Stats (@MegansStats) February 4, 2024

Megan Thee Stallion's "HISS" is predicted to debut at #1 on the Billboard Hot 100. It will be Megan's 3rd #1, first solo #1, and is expected to earn the biggest US sales and streaming week of the year. pic.twitter.com/WnoQdHgcW8

— Talk of the Charts (@talkofthecharts) February 3, 2024

…while “big foot” has tumbled somewhere to the depth of never to be seen again.
they pushed people to support megan and “hiss” tbh.
i think nicki underestimated many things tbh…

its no shock that as a straight wolf,
if you even mention that you like beyonce,
it will be all eyes on you with judgment.
in the eyes of many straight wolves:

“Beyonce is for females and them gay dudes.”

nfl baller wolf,
bobby wagner,
said out loud that he is inspired by beyonce on ex-baller wolf podcast.
peep the looks they gave bobby…

the dynamic between victoria monet and john gaines is so interesting to me.
she always does her and he does daddy duties at home.
she seems more extroverted while he comes off introverted.
personally fonting,
i feel like this is the type of relationship that vixens and gay males desire.
i mean,
who wouldn’t?

You got a fine manz at home (that you know is home) that you don’t have to worry about.

some of us want full control of our lives and the fine manz too.
when she had to remind everyone that she is bisexual again with gayle king…

Regrets or nah?

I was really into a wolf-turned-jackal.
I though he was cute and I wanted to fuck.
It seemed like he was on the same page as I was.
Someone else was into him too and I ended up in this weird triangle situation.
It ended up turning into this big mess where I ended up being the villain.
For a long time,
I regretted even being interested.
I blamed myself because others were blaming me.
I’ve come to conclusion that I wasn’t wrong for my feelings.
Everyone involved wasn’t wrong for how they felt.
He was interested in me and another couldn’t figure it out.
That doesn’t sound like a “me” problem.
I should be more mad because I wanted to fuck and that got ruined.

I wrote an entry last year.
It involved someone who I knew much about prior.
I’m sent in stories that appear to be juicy and I like sharing with The Foxhole.
I posted the story without even giving much thought.
It was an entry that you had to have access to see so it wouldn’t be on Google.
It created such a mess and it STILL has someone feeling upset.
I blamed myself because I questioned whether I should have posted the story.
I’ve come to the conclusion that folks have misdirected anger towards me.

regrets.
we all have them.
there are things we have done that we look back and shake our heads.
i’ve learned something about another aspect of having regrets tho…

Q: Do you struggle with showing yourself compassion? How does showing yourself compassion make you feel?

A: I have struggling showing myself compassion in the past due to feeling like I do things wrong. Showing myself compassion was difficult because I was taught that I was a “bad kid” who should know better. I didn’t know what showing myself compassion looked like.

Foxhole,
over the years,
i briefly taken you deep inside my dark side where my shadow resides.
insecurity,
jealously,
hurt,
anger,
and trauma reside.

we all have a dark side within us where our shadows live.
our shadows are the things we keep hidden from the light.
many of us choose to be honest or lie in fear of judgment.
it’s like the attentionistos who are always positive is actually jackals bts.

We all have a shadow side that we shine light away from anyone really knowing us.
They find out who we are once they get to know us and our masks start slipping off.

as you know,
i’m big on mental health stuff.
i think many of us could find value in shadow work.
what is shadow work?
in a nutshell…