inside jamari fox

the dynamic between victoria monet and john gaines is so interesting to me.
she always does her and he does daddy duties at home.
she seems more extroverted while he comes off introverted.
personally fonting,
i feel like this is the type of relationship that vixens and gay males desire.
i mean,
who wouldn’t?

You got a fine manz at home (that you know is home) that you don’t have to worry about.

some of us want full control of our lives and the fine manz too.
when she had to remind everyone that she is bisexual again with gayle king…

Regrets or nah?

I was really into a wolf-turned-jackal.
I though he was cute and I wanted to fuck.
It seemed like he was on the same page as I was.
Someone else was into him too and I ended up in this weird triangle situation.
It ended up turning into this big mess where I ended up being the villain.
For a long time,
I regretted even being interested.
I blamed myself because others were blaming me.
I’ve come to conclusion that I wasn’t wrong for my feelings.
Everyone involved wasn’t wrong for how they felt.
He was interested in me and another couldn’t figure it out.
That doesn’t sound like a “me” problem.
I should be more mad because I wanted to fuck and that got ruined.

I wrote an entry last year.
It involved someone who I knew much about prior.
I’m sent in stories that appear to be juicy and I like sharing with The Foxhole.
I posted the story without even giving much thought.
It was an entry that you had to have access to see so it wouldn’t be on Google.
It created such a mess and it STILL has someone feeling upset.
I blamed myself because I questioned whether I should have posted the story.
I’ve come to the conclusion that folks have misdirected anger towards me.

regrets.
we all have them.
there are things we have done that we look back and shake our heads.
i’ve learned something about another aspect of having regrets tho…

Q: Do you struggle with showing yourself compassion? How does showing yourself compassion make you feel?

A: I have struggling showing myself compassion in the past due to feeling like I do things wrong. Showing myself compassion was difficult because I was taught that I was a “bad kid” who should know better. I didn’t know what showing myself compassion looked like.

Foxhole,
over the years,
i briefly taken you deep inside my dark side where my shadow resides.
insecurity,
jealously,
hurt,
anger,
and trauma reside.

we all have a dark side within us where our shadows live.
our shadows are the things we keep hidden from the light.
many of us choose to be honest or lie in fear of judgment.
it’s like the attentionistos who are always positive is actually jackals bts.

We all have a shadow side that we shine light away from anyone really knowing us.
They find out who we are once they get to know us and our masks start slipping off.

as you know,
i’m big on mental health stuff.
i think many of us could find value in shadow work.
what is shadow work?
in a nutshell…

Hypothetically fonting…

let’s say you met this dude out and about.
i don’t know where.
use your imagination.
anyway,
ya’ll get to talking,
exchanging contact info,
and he asks you:

“You smoke?”

you don’t but you do now.
so you invite him over and he brings you a hot dog.
would you eat what he is trying to serve you?…

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Who knew Megan Thee Stallion would shake up the start of 2024?

who knew the words,
“megan’s law“,
would create such controversy?
richard kanka,
the father of megan kanka that was killed by a sexual predator,
is behind this lawsuit against megan.
per tmz…

I love when people aren’t self absorbed.
It’s cool.

its not a shocker that many people have a:

ME
ME
ME
ME
ME

…type of mentality.
it’s all about “me” and never considering anyone else.
some people truly can’t read the room.
they weren’t taught to do so.
why?

They have a “all my life I had to fight and I get a pass because of it”.

i saw a discussion on twitter about being called “girl” as gay males.
this has always been a touchy subject.
so this is what was said on busy boy uncensored podcast…