I never found Timothee Chalamet attractive until he was talking sports on ESPN.

there was something really masculine about him ( x in this moment ).
the facial hair helps too.
i’m gonna get into timothee in just a second,
but i’ve figured out something quite recently with him and kylie jenner.
one moment,
you think males are indifferent towards you and the next,
you got someone(s) “out of your league” hooked.
it’s about the universal truth…

I don’t know how I would even feel…

if i walked into my home and saw or someone had to break the news to me…

That the partner that I prayed for…

…was dead because he decided to delete himself.
i’m a very strong and resilient person but i can’t even imagine how that would fuck me up.
i would be left with so many thoughts and questions…

tilda
mikey
demi
zoe
angie
zendaya

it’s hollywood’s leading vixens stealing the show again.
they gathered around the hollywood reporter round table radiating wisdom,
charm,
and authenticity.
it was a masterclass in self-awareness and vulnerability.
tbh,
when i think of their male counterparts…

So,
I cried…
today.
keyword: today.

i wasn’t about to get netflix just to see beyonce perform yesterday.
netflix and i are on bad terms right now,
but that’s another story.
today,
i watched her concert in houston and it was chef’s kiss.
it’s a whole different level when black excellence takes the stage.
bey has been the entire forest in an industry where we’ve had to fight just to plant roots.
yesterday,
she graced her hometown with a special christmas performance at some arena.
something about the nfl…
ya know,
who cares because once bey rode in on her high horse…

…and I JUST told someone before this happened I thought he was attractive.
Ugh.
I hate when people ruin their attractiveness with foolishness.

late one night,
while tumbling down a rabbit hole of black historical horrors,
i found myself revisiting the disturbing practice of “buck breaking”.
as you know,
or didn’t,
but it was a vile tactic used during slavery.
it was where male slaves were raped by their masters for dominance and emasculation.

fast forward to today,
comedian jackal,
andrew schultz made headlines for what he wanted to do to kendrick lamar.
after kendrick called him out in “wacced out murals” by saying:

“Don’t let no white comedian talk about no Black woman,
that’s law.”

andrew went full…

How do we measure masculinity in the black community?

Is it in the depth of our voice,
the weight we can lift,
or the quiet battles we fight when no one’s watching?

i’ve been cool with cheaters,
liars,
and even a few abusers who were all straight.
the wild part is…