philip

confession: i’ve had sex 900 black males and it all started at 14 years old.

i don’t think we fully understand how serious addiction is.
some of us can relate to one (or more) of those things on that list.
i can name a few that i’ve indulged in.

A majority of gay males are addicted to sex.

sex,
for some,
is a way to feel seen and loved since that is extremely hard to find in this life.
some of us don’t look at other males as people,
but as conquests or something to worship.
some males want to sexually dominate the type of males that bullied them.
using our sexuality to control other males tends to be exhilarating.
its the only time many of us can feel in control of our lives tbh.
hell,
it’s the only time we actually feel “love” for 15-20 minutes.
i watched a video on “soft white underbelly” about a guy named philip.