Tag: love
the wolf who gave me more than i expected

last night on random,
i ended up in a group chat with a bunch of people.
i knew a few people but my only intent was to join and listen.
a fine AF wolf was in there that caught my eye.
i def wasn’t going to speak but that felt like the old me.
so he started talking about something that was bothering him.
something we have fonted about on the Foxhole many times.
it was about a gay jackal who couldn’t take no for an answer.
this gay jackal was on legit stalker mode with this wolf.
something urged me to type:
“Yeah,
I don’t get why people can’t respect other people’s boundaries.
No one is attracted to this kind of behavior.
Even if someone was attracted to them,
it would be a turn off heavy.”

that was it.
i said my peace and went back to lurking in the shadows.
then…
i have been trying to date my grandmother?

i only really understood my mother when she was on her deathbed.
before that,
i was a rebellious teenager.
in her final months,
we finally talked and i apologized for pushing her away.
lately,
my older cousin has been sharing stories about my mother.
i didn’t just inherit her features; i have her rebellious spirit too.
we started talking about my grandmother and i opened up about the abuse she put me through.
i was always afraid to tell anyone but my cousin actually listened.
he said something that stuck with me…
holding it together with duct tape and prayer

How are you doing?
waits for you to font me how you are doing
i get it.
i totally get it.
we are living in strange times and every day,
we get a fresh headline of a new executive order or some other fuck shit.
you start thinking about your job security,
your future,
your past,
and that pesky question:
“How bad is it going to get?”

it’s making it’s way downtown and its walking fast.
i can font things will be fine but honestly:
I don’t know.
i truly don’t know.
here is the truth in full font.
ready?…
leading ladies but lost males?

tilda
mikey
demi
zoe
angie
zendaya
it’s hollywood’s leading vixens stealing the show again.
they gathered around the hollywood reporter round table radiating wisdom,
charm,
and authenticity.
it was a masterclass in self-awareness and vulnerability.
tbh,
when i think of their male counterparts…
well i’ve got more than one condoms to last me a while…

They say the past has a funny way of circling back.
well,
this is the kind of circling back i’m into!
i recently found myself on the receiving end of a very sexy blast from the past,
courtesy of one condoms!
picture this:
a big package,
filled to the brim with condoms and stickers…
i think we are missing the obamas frfr

Have you ever found yourself missing the Obamas,
wondering if we were just…
better with them in charge?
last night,
as i watched them speak at the dnc,
it felt like a wave of nostalgia mixed with a cold dose of reality.
the obamas have this way of making you want to level up.
michelle,
especially.
i’m glad that she has shifted her past stance.
she went from “when they go low, we go high” to:
“You come for me and I’ll dropkick you straight to hell.”

i’m here for every bit of it.
after the speeches ended and the tv went dark,
a thought kept circling in my mind.
is it just me…
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