This Is What Happens When I Go To Sleep Mad. I End Up Dying!

i had this dream that i died last night.
before i went to bed,
i wrote an entry and it completely fucked up.
i was pissed and just said fuck it.
i took a shower and climbed in bed.
knocked out immediately.
funny enough,
after a dream like that,
i woke up so calm.
let me try to remember everything about the dream…

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I Think You Need Some Coffee Because You Look Tired Boo.

i needed to watch this.
won’t lie,
woke up feeling a little defeated.
things are moving slow.
slow and shaky.
life is not being fair.
but,
in between the tears,
i still believe.
i believe something better is out there for me.
this can’t be “it”.
all the bad treatment and the hurt…
was that for nothing?
was i given this talent to write for it to be nowhere?
was i put here on earth to suffer?
there are so many other people who are suffering.
so many people who are living in hell and have everything.
it’s not me.
i don’t think so.
but it’s my mind that will keep me contained.
keep me stagnant.
“you’re not good enough.”
“you will never make it.“
“you will never get a job.“
“you will be ~~doomed.~~“
it’s that voice.
that is what makes you “not make it”.

i came across these video and it was like coffee for a tired soul..

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I Gave Head In Someone Else’s Apartment Last Night

I guess it starred YOU, WOLF, because I don’t know who “he” was.

I had the most intense sex dream last night.
It traveled with me the entire day.
I woke up and nearly started to masturbate.
In in the dream, it starred some Wolf I never met, Me… and a Fox.