inside jamari fox

i loved “the butterfly effect” because it shows the dangers of changing the past.

cousin hybrid asked me today that if i could go back to a particular year,
one where all the shit in my life popped off,
would i change anything with the knowledge i have now.
ironic because earlier today,
i asked fancy if she ever misses anyone from her past.
i’ve been fantasizing heavy about someone from mine.
as fun as it would be to try and change the past…

this is how he should have been looking down on the bullshit but here we are.

personally,
royce styles is doing the most.
he got ( x peanut ) exposing him over allegedly being a DL opportunist.
the real scandal is shannon sharpe allegedly hunting out muscle tail,
…but royce styles is involved because peanut is on a rampage.
royce claims these are all lies,
there was alleged “grooming” going on,
and he is exposing all.
royce styles went on tasha k to share his side and well…

i need a new job so bad that it kept me up all last night.
of course on a night i only slept 6 hours,
today had to pop off with the most issues and attitudes.
for one,
this job is a bridge that can’t sustain me long term.
with the way you gotta make 3xs the income to get your own spot:

it came at a good time when i needed it,
but the more i work at the job,
the more i realize this bridge is getting narrower.
working in a small suburban office is cool until…

you know what my biggest issue is with DL or curious wolves?
since everything is on their time,
you’re always catering to them to make “the move”.

that could happen tomorrow.
that could happen six months from now.
that could happen never.

all that back and forth is trash and honestly…

nothing is worse than when you think you met cool people at work,
and they end up making your work day an absolute nightmare.
i can only imagine what karamo brown dealt with on queer eye,
but if history has taught us:

you gotta be careful with bitchy white gays.
many of them see you as BBC or beneath them.
some will play “oppressed” and flip on that privilege real quick too.

karamo is broke his silence about what happened and why he left…

i been thinking that if everything that has happened these last 3 years,
even if i thought it was so negative,
was actually part of God’s plan?

this time last year of june 2025,
in about a month,
i was gonna come where i am now for a BBQ.
i didn’t want to come but something urged me to go.
when i left here that night to go back to new yawk,
i have on video telling my friend i was gonna live here.

“i don’t know how,
but i’m going to live here.”

and even though this transition wasn’t ‘a walk in the park…