i usually keep it lowkey but today?
i’m claiming my happiness.
for years,
i felt like an outsider looking in,
surrounded by my straight peers/associates,
always questioning where i stood.
picking up pom poms to cheer many of them on but when it came to me,
i barely got the same energy that i needed.
i won’t lie but it always hurt my feelings because it made me feel used.
i’ve come to learn…

Have you ever found yourself missing the Obamas,
wondering if we were just…
better with them in charge?

last night,
as i watched them speak at the dnc,
it felt like a wave of nostalgia mixed with a cold dose of reality.
the obamas have this way of making you want to level up.
michelle,
especially.
i’m glad that she has shifted her past stance.
she went from “when they go low, we go high” to:

“You come for me and I’ll dropkick you straight to hell.”

i’m here for every bit of it.

after the speeches ended and the tv went dark,
a thought kept circling in my mind.
is it just me…

I love how ratchet we get and then talk about God.
I love how unhinged we are on here.

so last night,
something so wild happened that i had to share it with The Foxhole.
picture this: i’m sprawled out on my couch,
mid-binge of queen sugar.
i left hanging somewhere in the chaos of the rona.
i figured why not start from the beginning and get lost in that drama again?

Sidebar: something urged me to watch it again.

…but as the first episode rolled on,
my mind wandered back to some therapy revelations from earlier that day.
i was thinking about seeking acceptance and the trauma from my youth.
just when i was deep in my thoughts,
someone i’m cool with hit me up in DMs randomly.
we don’t really talk like that but we respect each other heavy.
he knew Star Fox as well.
so this person went MIA for what felt like forever and randomly hits me up out of the blue last night.
Foxhole…

i love “the morning show” because of it’s behind the curtain of tv anchor chaos.
last season,
they added nicole beharie and i was thrilled but this next season?
brace yourselves because…

I had to wonder:
Have you ever wondered if being treated unfairly and underestimated might actually be a blessing in disguise?

there’s inspiration everywhere if we choose to open our eyes for it.
take nicole beharie,
my straight vixen crush.
remember her on “sleepy hollow“?
when she she was on there,
she was a beloved character but randomly,
she she got let go.
after that,
the rumor mill went wild.

Difficult to work with.
“Crazy”
I even heard she bit someone(?)

i never saw her defend herself and rightfully so.
when you know something isn’t true,
what’s there to say or font?

to john q. public,
it looked like behind-the-scenes racism.
her character was killed off and they replaced her with a white vixen.
the show ended up tanking shortly afterwards.
nicole went rogue after that which is one of my favorite things to do.
she did some indie projects but nothing major.
then,
like a plot twist in one of my favorite shows,
she was cast in season three of “the morning show”.
look at how God works…

it’s no secret that many white males love a big,
black,
juicy,
cock….
(in their) tail.
i mean,
we all do especially after a long and hard day.
this white wolf we all know looks like arms and biceps are his weakness.
what a coinky dink!
mine too!
i think he might have forgotten all lens are on him tho…