I couldn’t help but wonder:
Are we all just sad clowns,
performing for an audience that never truly sees us?

yesterday,
i won’t even hold you but i spent most of the day crying.
i’ve never been one to shy away from expressing about my issues.
it was a struggle for me to get anything done.
lately,
i’ve been feeling like I’m wearing two masks.
one is the one everyone expects…

Words can be powerful,
almost like spells,
and they hold weight in tragic moments like the following.

kelly rowland has a song called “stole“ that really resonates right now:

“His life was stole and we’ll never knowwww…”

that’s exactly how i felt upon hearing the heartbreaking news about saiveon hopkins,
known to many as jay hefner on only fans…

I had to wonder:
Have you ever wondered what happens when the pursuit of acceptance turns into a debt trap?

i’m learning to be glad i wasn’t accepted when i desperately wanted to be.
God was really looking out for me.
it left me with the ability to be transparent about the good and the bad.
others i know,
sadly,
would probably die if their followers knew the truth about their lives.
they’ve created such a highlight reel that there’s no going back.
take brandon miller for example.

while his wife,
candice miller,
was vacationing in europe,
he deleted himself in the garage of their flaunted crib.
why?…

a breakup
a job loss
rejection
the death of someone close to us
setbacks that make us question our path
being ostracized from people we thought were our friends/family
struggling to accept not being straight
being violated and no one wants to listen or believe you/sides with the abuser

all these unwelcome guests can open the door to depression.
one moment…

You what this reminds me of?
When your mind makes something bigger than what the reality is.
“He is probably without me and having a good life”…
and then he tells you he has been miserable and flexin’ heavy on the gram.

as a content driven society that lives for drama,
the recent #whereiskate scandal had us all in grips.
kate middleton vanished and we wanted to know where TF she went.
i won’t lie but the conspiracy theories were a fun ride.

I was expecting the one where Kate found out Will was cheating and went rogue.
She was a planning a divorce and she would team up with Meghan for a BRF take down that would be streamed on the OWN network.

alas,
like our minds making things bigger than they actually is,
kate middleton has been in a private battle.
she revealed that she has been fighting cancer today…

This is the face of someone who will find love again.
He just has to heal from this current hurt.

i was sent in a video that made me sad.
it was from @dougiedougdouglas and his story is pretty brutal.
it’s a story we all have or may experience regardless of looks,
wealth,
or IG clout…