when i was young fox,
going through depression,
i saw this video pop on BET and it gave me instant peace:

“Ain’t No Rain In This Cloud”

i love good songs that are current but composed like past generations.
i begged my mother to buy me her debut album,
“black diamond“,
after i heard her second single:

I LOVED the vibe of “Alright”.

after i got the album,
i proceeded to listen to it every day.
i loved her second album,
“mahogany soul”,
even though that album also brings back not so great memories.
safe to font that even though i stopped keeping up with her,
i have always fucked wit angie stone.
sadly,
today…

Have you ever felt guilty for not feeling more?

i remember the first time i went out with my father and actually enjoyed it.
i was like 8 and he took me to the zoo…

If you had asked me a few years ago,
I would’ve said I’d be devastated if Work Wolf died.
If he died tomorrow,
I probably wouldn’t care.
That is a done deal.

it’s funny how time and perspective change everything,
isn’t it?

last night,
one of my good friends told me her great love had passed away unexpectedly.
i never met him but the news hit harder than i expected…

How do you grieve someone you weren’t supposed to love?

I knew he was married.

I couldn’t help but wonder:
Are we all just sad clowns,
performing for an audience that never truly sees us?

yesterday,
i won’t even hold you but i spent most of the day crying.
i’ve never been one to shy away from expressing about my issues.
it was a struggle for me to get anything done.
lately,
i’ve been feeling like I’m wearing two masks.
one is the one everyone expects…

Words can be powerful,
almost like spells,
and they hold weight in tragic moments like the following.

kelly rowland has a song called “stole“ that really resonates right now:

“His life was stole and we’ll never knowwww…”

that’s exactly how i felt upon hearing the heartbreaking news about saiveon hopkins,
known to many as jay hefner on only fans…