inside jamari fox

I couldn’t help but wonder:
When we find ourselves in the midst of a huge scandal,
where our reputations are really on the line,
is silence truly golden?

when lightweight drama hits,
like cheating or “someone got offended by something” scandals,
one of the best things you can do is shut up and let the storm pass.
people will always create their own narratives.
when accusations get serious tho,
it’s a different game altogether.
those need to be addressed immediately before they spiral out of control.
take the recent mess with castro,
jacobi,
and his manz dem.
it turned into a forest fire in about 2.5 seconds.
(x you can peep the background here)
well,
jacobi finally got castro to explain the situation and…

I couldn’t help but wonder:
How far are you willing to go for revenge?

last night,
i watched a movie that blew me away.
randomly,
there was an ad about it that peaked my interest.
when i watched,
it raised my anxiety in the best possible way.
even today,
i can’t stop thinking about it.
it’s called “femme“,
and it stars george mackay and nathan stewart-jarrett,
and the premise is something many of us Foxholers understand all too well…

I couldn’t help but wonder:
Do we all carry a secret fantasy,
a vision of revenge that keeps us going through the toughest times?

i have this secret fantasy in my head.
a clear vision of how i’d like my life to turn out.
it’s what keeps me going as i suffer.
it’s a vision of me finally happy…

I had a friend who didn’t take the vaccine.
She was adamant about not taking it even though I did.
Whenever she would hear alleged bad news about taking the vaccine,
she would always say:

“Ya’ll went and took that vaccine…”
“Ya’ll this…”
“Ya’ll that…”

…and i found that shit to be really disrespectful.
i was about two seconds from cussin’ her ass TF out.
like…

a breakup
a job loss
rejection
the death of someone close to us
setbacks that make us question our path
being ostracized from people we thought were our friends/family
struggling to accept not being straight
being violated and no one wants to listen or believe you/sides with the abuser

all these unwelcome guests can open the door to depression.
one moment…

i bought jaguar wright‘s first album.
i think i might have been the only one.
i bought it because of her being on jay’s unplugged and the coke commercial with the mouth:

Remember when neo-soul was poppin?
I miss that era.
I didn’t realize how much drama them neo-soul folks were in around that time either.

anyway,
the album was terrible and she vanished slowly after.
jaguar has been running her own platform,
being on all the podcasts,
but her mental illness as the main feature.
she has said some wild things in the past but allegedly,
she said she saw an alleged tape of nicki minaj and megan the stallion performing.
not the type of performing you are thinking about tho…