“What about your friendssssssss…”

that is one of my favorite tlc songs next to “creep“.
do we have real friends in our lives?
or do we have stand-ins who will let us down?
there is always a prominent thing that has happened in my life with past friends…

“Jennifer Lopez is a beautiful vixen but she isn’t interesting.” – Cousin Hybrid

i don’t think many realize being just pretty,
or handsome.
or dresses well,
or has a well put together social media isn’t interesting.
anyone can be all of those things.
i’ll font about jlo and why she isn’t interesting these days…

Something came to me and i want to share it with the Foxhole.

if you wanna know if a celebrity,
a potential love interest,
someone else’s new love interest,
or pookie down the block isn’t a good person…

Regrets or nah?

I was really into a wolf-turned-jackal.
I though he was cute and I wanted to fuck.
It seemed like he was on the same page as I was.
Someone else was into him too and I ended up in this weird triangle situation.
It ended up turning into this big mess where I ended up being the villain.
For a long time,
I regretted even being interested.
I blamed myself because others were blaming me.
I’ve come to conclusion that I wasn’t wrong for my feelings.
Everyone involved wasn’t wrong for how they felt.
He was interested in me and another couldn’t figure it out.
That doesn’t sound like a “me” problem.
I should be more mad because I wanted to fuck and that got ruined.

I wrote an entry last year.
It involved someone who I knew much about prior.
I’m sent in stories that appear to be juicy and I like sharing with The Foxhole.
I posted the story without even giving much thought.
It was an entry that you had to have access to see so it wouldn’t be on Google.
It created such a mess and it STILL has someone feeling upset.
I blamed myself because I questioned whether I should have posted the story.
I’ve come to the conclusion that folks have misdirected anger towards me.

regrets.
we all have them.
there are things we have done that we look back and shake our heads.
i’ve learned something about another aspect of having regrets tho…

Q: Do you struggle with showing yourself compassion? How does showing yourself compassion make you feel?

A: I have struggling showing myself compassion in the past due to feeling like I do things wrong. Showing myself compassion was difficult because I was taught that I was a “bad kid” who should know better. I didn’t know what showing myself compassion looked like.

Foxhole,
over the years,
i briefly taken you deep inside my dark side where my shadow resides.
insecurity,
jealously,
hurt,
anger,
and trauma reside.

we all have a dark side within us where our shadows live.
our shadows are the things we keep hidden from the light.
many of us choose to be honest or lie in fear of judgment.
it’s like the attentionistos who are always positive is actually jackals bts.

We all have a shadow side that we shine light away from anyone really knowing us.
They find out who we are once they get to know us and our masks start slipping off.

as you know,
i’m big on mental health stuff.
i think many of us could find value in shadow work.
what is shadow work?
in a nutshell…

Let’s font that this Person A has a stalker.

they have been keeping their whereabouts under wraps.
let’s font they said something online against:

Trump
Nicki
Megan
The Pope
Whoever

person b (along with c, d, e, f, and g) saw it and didn’t like it.
so person b decided to dox person a and put their whole address online.
the other alphabets are cheering on.
doxxing means putting someone’s personal information on the internet.
person a’s stalker sees all of this information and goes to their crib.

Person A ends up getting brutally murdered.

person b thinks no one will catch them because they are on a burner.
their default picture is a zebra so they think they are in the clear.

Babes.
I’m about to drop the bomb on your lap…