this might get me dragged…
i often look at gays whose sole purpose is to “take down wolves (tops)“,
wolves being the dominant rather than submissive fox (bottom),
as being weaker males who desperately seek power.
“Well he wasn’t a top with me last night.”
do you want an award or medal of honor for this?
i don’t brag about a wolf dominating me and loved my good stuff.
it’s the same with other sexuality and their views of sex.
“I still beat.”
it’s no shocker that people want power.
it’s also not a shocker people want power because they’re weaker.
most rap vixens teach vixens and gay males how to change the power dynamic with males,
but end up settling and having kids with bottom of the barrel trash.
gay and bi males,
who are usually treated so terribly by society,
tend to reclaim our power in sex and dominance.
if you notice,
being a fox (bottom) is degrading,
but being a top (wolf) is the highest honor you can have.
even if its an illusion.
that doesn’t make us any more or less damaged while doing it.
a foxholer sent me a screen shot that i was stewing in for the week.
i was in a pot with the collards and the seasonings over this…
this was so deep to me.
i had to hit up the pretty vixen about it and she said:
…and that’s it.
you’ll hear the lines about why males choose to be fuck bois and emotionally unavailable.
some random broke their heart in high school/kindergarten and they became savages.
males are not taught how to properly express our emotions and hurt.
hbo’s “insecure” really showed that perfectly with lawrence and how he handled being hurt by issa.
videos cc: hbo
fuck the hurt away.
gay males aren’t taught anything.
i’ve noticed gay and bi males seek out to sexually dominate the same males that bullied them.
they bait straight males for their nudes as a power play.
we all have excuses we use to run around being demons trying to reclaim power.
here is the rub:
are very angry.
some of us know why we’re angry; others pretend they don’t know.
we show that anger when confronted with the very things that hurt us in the past.
We can’t love someone because they “might” cheat on us
We can’t be genuine friends because we “might” get betrayed
We can’t pursue our attractions to the same sex because being that is the lowest of the low
the crazy part is we only end up hurting ourselves in the process.
^that person was very brave to share their truth.
the fact he realized he might not even be attracted to the same sex was huge.
it speaks for many males that i’ve encountered in this life.
i wanted them to love me,
but they didn’t love themselves due to their own demons.
so they took my power away while trying to keep themselves guarded.
they probably did it to many others in their paths of destruction.
i might have done it to someone(s) and not even realize.
well guess what?
You’re not gonna find “YOU” hurting others while trying to heal your broken heart.
and social media status are all temporary fixes for a bigger issue.
this is why i keep saying a majority of black folks need therapy.
we been trying to fix our issues with outside sources (drugs, alcohol, and/or sex),
or getting into constant relationships/situationships,
but we always seem to come right back to the beginning after the honeymoon phase wears off.
Does that IG story reflect you?
if it does,
you are not alone.
it might be time to fix it.